Update

Update

This is an update before i start writing my dailies again.

As you know in the last one, i wrote, i had walked away from Master, for ever i thought.

Well it wasn’t for ever because i just couldn’t live without Him. i tried for over a week but it was the most miserable week of my life.

Master emailed me on Sunday 18th, telling me i had to get back in line and do it by 7.00. The only problem was i didn’t see that message until Monday, so it was too late. He also left me a message on msn saying “come on talk to Me” i replied to Him saying i wanted to talk to Him but was scared and embarrassed.

i then found out, on Wednesday, that my phone line had a problem so i emailed Master asking Him if He had tried to phone me and explained about the fault but that it was fixed. He never replied.

On Thursday, i received an email from Master, asking me what is was i wanted and saying that if i want to be back by His side then i had to email Him, if not to never email Him again. i went on to msn and got hold of my sub friend lyn for some advice, i explained that i felt confused, did i really want a Master or just the idea of one, but then i told her how miserable i had been, we chatted for a while and she told me to go for it with Master, because if i didn’t i may regret it. i knew she was right so i told her i would email Him straight away, just as i sent that message to her, Master came online and sent me a message, it read “talk to Me bitch”, so i said hello to Him and he asked me why i wasn’t going to get back in line, i told Him i was just about to email Him so He told me to do that, and said bye.

So i emailed Him, i had to beg Him to come back to me, which i did. He then replied that He wanted me to prove it and i had 10 minutes to prove it. i sat and thought for a minute how to prove it, i knew He’d want some physical proof. Then i had an idea. Once before i had to write on my chest Master Paul in lipstick and take a photo of it and email it to Him, so i went into my bedroom took of my top and bra, got my lipstick and wrote “Be my Master” across my chest took a photo of it and emailed it to Him. He replied “Good slut, now phone Me” so i phoned Him.

He wanted me to go on msn and use the web cam He had sent me, i explained that i had packed it away, He also asked what i was wearing and i told Him white cotton bra and panties, a brown skirt and brown top, no stocking due to the weather being warm. He told me to put stockings on and set up my web cam, and asked how long i needed, i told Him 15 minutes. He gave me 10 minutes to get it done, and said bye and hung up.

i put my stockings and suspenders on, then went into my office to set up the web cam, then i went online with it.

He wanted me to stand up in front of it, and remove my top. He asked me to show Him my hands, He could see that i still had my nails polish on asked He had told me to do in the past, He also wanted to see my feet, one at a time. He instructed me to remove my rings and my chain, which i did, it took a bit longer to get the chain off as it’s fiddly and i was nervous, Master told me not to be nervous. He asked about the sound and i told Him it was right up on the web cam so He told me to phone Him.

i phoned Him and He was instructing me to do things in front of the web cam. i had to pull my panties to one side and rub my clit, then He wanted a close up of my pubic hair, as it was growing now, so i told Him i would have to put the phone down, He replied that was ok, so i put the phone down got the web cam and gave Him a close up shot. He also wanted a close up of my cunt, i had to hold my lips open with one hand and place the web cam in a position so He could see my cunt.

He then told me to sit back down which i did.

Master then wanted me to remove my bra straps from my shoulders, first the left one then the right one, then He told me to get one of my tits out, i didn’t hear Him properly so got both out and He shouted at me because He only said one. i put the other one away and He then made me pull my nipple, hard and not let go, as punishment for not obeying His exact words. That hurt, but i did it because Master had told me to.

After i had done that my web cam froze, and then msn disconnected, when i checked, my internet connection had gone down. Which was annoying as i had just become accustomed to sitting in front of the web cam. So i could have done what ever Master wanted in front of my web cam and not been nervous about it any more.

So We/we had to just continue on the phone. Master made me caress my tits and play with my clit, and finger my twat, He kept stopping me or i would stop if i was near to orgasm, as Master said i must not orgasm, but He kept telling me to play with my twat again, He was talking to me as He always does when i’m playing, He was telling about a film that He was watching, that i had put on my skydrive for Him. He then let me orgasm, which was the first orgasm i’d had since the last time He had told me i could.

The whole time i didn’t have Him as my Master i only tried to masturbate once, without success, because He was in my head. Without Him telling me what to do i just couldn’t get aroused, Now here i was with Master again and my cunt was soaking wet with my juices. It felt so good to have Him back. i was happy now.

Master told me that, the next day (Friday), i had to take 6 photos, 1 with the camera on the floor pointing straight up my legs to my cunt, 1 of a close up of my hole and 4 others of my choice, and my punishment for messing Him around, is that He is going to put them on an amateur site for all to see.

After He told me this He had me playing with myself again, i was told to rub my clit, slowly to start with then He made me do it harder and harder i was getting really aroused, He started talking again, this time about a married woman, He had during the week, He told me He made her cum a few times, and that she sucks dick good, but that her tits were too small to slap, as He likes to do that, He told me He had just used her, but that He was serious about me. He asked how i felt about Him using her, i said i was fine with that. He then said that i had to orgasm while He counted to 10, but He doesn’t count normally to 10, sometimes He speeds up sometimes He slows down so i can’t judge when to orgasm, because it’s never the same. He reached 10 and i was nearly there, but needed a little bit more time, He was telling me to orgasm now, He said that a couple of times and i did orgasm, and as usual every time i orgasm i have to say “i love my cunt” which i did. Then He told me it was nearly 1.00 am and told me to go to bed.

It does feel good having Master back.

i went to town on Friday and bought some rechargeable batteries for my camera with a charger.

When i got home i checked my emails and there was one from Master, asking why i hadn’t done my photos, so i explained that i had only just got in. i done the photos and emailed them to Him. i keep checking my emails and haven’t had any replies from Master yet about the photos.

Saturday 24th May
i woke up at 8.50 this morning, which was late for me, put on my dressing gown, the one that has a tartan pattern in pinks and light blues. i went in to my office and checked my emails, still nothing from Master.

So i started writing the first half of this post (Update), while i was writing i was uploading another part of a porn film to my skydrive for Master, even when He wasn’t my Master i was still uploading films for Him.

Checked emails again at 10.40, have to stop uploading to check my emails, this time i had one from Master. He said that He was pleased with me and my photos, that made me happy, He also said that i’m not required to take any photo's to day. and that He wanted to know to what i expect/want from Him being my Master. Also He would like my views on collaring of a submissive.

i had to have a think about what i did want from Him as my Master, but i did reply with what i wanted and also my views on collaring.

After i sent that i went into the bathroom and got bathed, shaved my legs and armpits still haven’t touched my pubes. i got out of the bath,wet and combed my hair , then brushed my teeth. i went in to the bedroom and got dressed, today i’m wearing plain 100% cotton bra and panties, both from Tescos, a short red skirt, which is 80% wool and 20% nylon, not sure of the make as i cut the label out a while ago because it irritated me, and a 100% cotton white v neck t shirt, size 16, bought from Peacocks a long while ago.

i found out from my youngest son, Alan, that i had been invited to a party at his dads (my second husband) house, he has friends coming up from London and as i haven’t seen them for a while i would like to go, my son, daughter, son-in-law and grandchildren are going. So i emailed Master and asked if it was alright for me to go.

At 1.15 i went down to the kitchen and mad myself a pate sandwich, brought it back up to my office and ate it while i was on the PC.

I went into the bedroom and put the telly on, and started watching a film on ITV1, with Michael J Fox in it, i was watching that and popping back in to the office to check emails while the adverts were on.

Film has finished and i’m back at my PC writng this, because i want it posted before i go out, if i’m going out that is, as i’m writing this i haven’t had a reply from Master, as yet.

It’s 4.39 and i’m going to go downstairs in a minute to cook some dinner.

5.06 dinner is on, i’m cooking mince beef with peas and gravy and we’re going to have chips tonight, i was going to do cottage pie, but as i haven’t had chips for a couple of weeks thought i’d do them instead.

Still no reply from Master. if it gets too late i might have to text Him, i know He doesn’t like that but i need to know if i can go out or not.

It’s nearly 7.00, i’ve had dinner, i’ve redone my nails and am about to get ready to go out, still no reply from Master though and i don’t really want to text Him. So i might just go any way and email Him to tell Him i’m going, i just hope He doesn’t mind.