One Word

It was Wednesday, 26th March 2008, just after 4.00 in the afternoon. I was online on this site i used to use. At an earlier time i’d done a questionnaire and one word was put into my profile.



That word was compliant.


That was all it needed for Him to notice me, just that one word. He checked me out, i checked him out, we messaged each other had a quick chat and He gave me His home phone number and told me to phone Him. Without even a second thought i phoned him, it was 4.30.


We/we chatted and He explained that He was a Master. i told him that i was submissive in the bedroom but hadn’t been in other aspects of my life. He was very forceful with His words, He convinced me after a chat that i was probably a submissive, but needed someone like Him to nurture it.


He wanted me to email Him with a description of me and my life and then phone Him back at 11.30 that evening. So i did email him, but it wasn’t a very long email because i never used to talk much about myself due to previous relationships where i was seen and not heard, so i couldn’t express myself.


Later that night i received a reply to my email saying that with time He would show me how to really express myself, how to let go and be true to who i really was. He also said that if i read the email i could phone Him at 11.10 instead of 11.30, and to be dressed up and wearing make up.


So that’s exactly what i did, i dressed up, put make up on and as soon as it was 11.10 i rang him, i never even thought about the fact that He was controlling me already.


We/we had a long chat about things in general and about me and my life up to that point. After about an hour He told me to hang up and He would phone me back, which He did.


What happened next really surprised me. He told me to start playing with my clit or bud as He calls it, and without question i just did what i was told. He told me to rub harder or slow down, depending on whether i was close to orgasm or not. i always used the word pussy but he didn’t like that, earlier in the afternoon, on the phone i had told him i didn’t like the word cunt, but He told me it was up to Him what it was called so i had to use the cunt word. i had to say i don’t have a pussy i have a cunt.


He made me orgasm 3 times that night and after each orgasm He had me taking deep breaths. i also remember wetting my panties, putting on a clean pair and having to wet that pair. i couldn’t believe that i had done all this, as if was natural to me, which it wasn’t. i also remember that as well as cunt He called it a twat, and He called me slut, bitch and by my name the short version and full first name. He asked me why He did this, i said that i didn’t know and He replied it was to make sure i was listening to Him.


i had never felt like that before, or been ordered to do those things before. i thought it was exciting


He let me go to sleep at 1.30 in the morning. Before He hung up He told me i had to email him the next day and tell Him what i was wearing and what i’d been doing for the day. Which, i agreed to do.

Thursday 27th March
Then in the cold light of day, when i woke up and realised what i had done, i thought to myself that i couldn’t do this. So i emailed Him and told Him so. He never replied, so i thought that was easy, as i didn’t think He’d let me go that easy. In a way i was disappointed.


Friday 28th March
I never had any emails or phone calls from Him, so i thought that was that.


Sunday 30th March
How wrong was i. He sent me an email , a not very nice email. Basically he told me that if i wanted Him as my Master i should beg for another chance, and i did want Him as my Master, i was just scared, as it was all new to me. He told me to think wisely and either reply to His email or ignore it and He wouldn’t be around in any form, and that there wouldn’t be another chance if i did it again. The thing is, i kept checking him out on the original site so He knew i was interested.


So i did as i was told and begged Him to forgive me, i then emailed Him with what i should have emailed to Him on the Thursday.


He phoned me later that day, and He told me that i had to tell my kids about Him and about the lifestyle i had chosen. So i got hold of my 3 kids, who are grown up, and arranged for them to be at my house the next night so that i could tell them all in one go instead of telling them one at a time.


He phoned me later that night and i told Him what i had arranged, He laughed and thought it was funny having a family meeting, but it was the easiest way i could think of. This was a big change in my life.


He made me masturbate again and this time when i orgasmed i had to say “i love my cunt”. (i have to say that every time now). i used to be quiet when i was reaching an orgasm because of the kids growing up, but now they have grown up and except one, have left home, my Master wanted me to let it out as He puts it, so i did moan but He wanted it louder, and He kept saying louder until it was really loud. I’ve got to get used to making a noise, it pleases Master when i do.


Wednesday 9th April
i did it again, i told Master that i was going to get back with my ex, who i had been with for 16 years and even though he left me last November, i still had feeling for, .we were going to meet on Saturday, my ex and i, and get back together. Only he never turned up. I’d said in my email to Master that i knew if anything went wrong between my ex and i, i’d blown my chance of being Masters sub, because He said the last time no more chances.


Sunday 13th April
Master did email me and luckily He did give me another chance, He wasn’t very happy with me, but i couldn’t blame Him. i just wasn’t used to not doing what i wanted, when i wanted. i was acting like a spoilt little child, and i had to get my mind right or i would lose my Master for ever.


Today Sunday 4th May
A lot has happened since then and i still have a Master. i’ve gone through a lot of different things, sexually, i used to masturbate a lot now i only do it when Master tells me to, i don’t get horny anymore, like i used to. If i disappoint Him, He makes me slap my cunt or my tits and that hurts but i do it because He tells me to. He has made me put clothes pegs on my nipples and my cunt lips. i take photos of myself and send them to Him. When He’s phoned me i am either in my office (at home) or in the living room or bedroom and no matter where i am He has made me masturbate, either by rubbing my bud or sticking my fingers up my cunt, and if i’m good He’s let me orgasm.



We/we even communicate on msn and i do exactly what he tells me to do, because i am getting used to having a Master.


A Master who is 10 years younger than me, i’m 49.


A Master who's into control and humiliation.


A Master who i need.