Between 7.00 and 8.00 last night i watched Top Gear on BBC3, then came up to my PC and checked my emails, i stayed on my PC for about an hour.
my ex text me at 9.05 to say he’d be about 20 minutes, so i just replied ok. He’s taking me somewhere so that i can take my photos, the ones Master wants. So i went in to my bedroom and removed my bra, the top i was wearing can easily pulled down to take the pics, then i went downstairs, got my coat, and went in to the toilet pulled my top down and put my coat on, i thought it’d be easier than just keep pulling my top down, then i put my shoes on, and waited in the living room for him to turn up.
9.45 a car pulled up outside and i looked out, it was my ex. i left the house and got in the car and we drove a little while to get to where it was more secluded, there were houses around but it was full of trees and an open field. we went through the trees and i took two in amongst the trees, then i went out the other side and took one at the edge of the field, i had to wait to take that one as a couple of people were walking passed, but i had my coat on, so they wouldn’t have known what i was doing there, i let them get right away from me and then took it.
Got back in to his car and then he took me home again. As soon as i got in i went straight upstairs and put the photos on my PC from my camera, then sent them, via email, to Master. i then got ready for bed and sat in bed reading, i turned the light out at 11.24 and went to sleep.
Saturday 31st May
Woke up at 7.47, got out of bed put on a dressing gown and went to the bathroom for a wee, then in to the office to check my emails. i also checked the film i was downloading for Master, it had finished at last.
I went back into my bedroom and started to tidy it up as i had stuff from my caravan in there that had to go up in to the loft, so i got it put in to areas, some for the loft, some for the airing cupboard (spare bedding) and i found a few clothes amongst the stuff that wouldn’t fit me any more so bagged that for the charity shop. Then i rearranged a few things so that i could use the freeview box i had brought back from the caravan. Once i had done that i went to the kitchen and made myself a cup of tea, took it back upstairs and sat on the bed to watch some telly and drink it.
At 11.03 i checked my emails again, this time i had one from Master, thanking me for the photos, and giving me another task for today. He wanted me to get a selfpic of either a teen or older woman, that would arouse me and send it to Him with an explanation as to why it aroused me. He also told me that He would be phoning me on Sunday for a long chat and that He was going out of His way not to use me sexually as when He does He wants my cunt to be on fire. As soon as i had read that i went online to find a picture.
David and Tina were coming round to day to help me with decorating the hall, stairs and landing.
They turned up at 12.40, later than they wanted to, but a few things happened at home that why they were late. When they turned up they had been to the chip shop and brought some chips for lunch, so i got the plated out for Tina and she put chips on each plate. I only ate a few, 1. because i’m not keen on chip shop chips and 2. because i don’t each much these days.
1.15 David and Tina were taking Alan to a tyre place so that he could get a couple of valves changed on his wheels, while they were gone i emailed Master with the picture He wanted, with the explanation.
When they got back, we got the paint out of the front shed and Tina started painting the landing ceiling and i started glossing the door frames and skirting boards. At 4.42 i had finished all the glossing up stairs and stopped for a cup of tea. me and Tina are doing the painting, so David is the tea boy for the day, until we get to a bit that neither of us can reach because we are both short.
While we were painting Mario turned up, so he could see what we were doing. At 5.08 Mario turned up again this time with Lynne and all the kids, i wasn’t very happy about that because that meant i couldn’t finish downstairs with the gloss in case it got over the kids. After about an hour of them being here they said they were just popping to Marios dads and left the kids here, so i ended up baby sitting for a while, they didn’t get back till just after 8. Tina had started painting the walls upstairs, but i still couldn’t finish the glossing downstairs. Lynne had brought back Macdonalds for the kids, so once they had eaten that they went home and then so did Tina and David and Tina said that they would be back tomorrow to help me finish off.
At 9.30 i watched the results of Britains Got Talent. Then came up to write this.
Saturday 31 May 2008
Friday 30 May 2008
Went on youtube to see what other tracks people had put with Lord of the Rings film clips. Nothing as good as If I Die Tomorrow.
8.30 put the tv on in my bedroom to watch Britains Got Talent, that finished just before 10.00, i then went back on my PC, as i was having a text conversation, during the program, with a friend of mine from Burnley, her name’s Deb. She suggested going on face book then we could chat on there instead of using up credit on our mobiles. So i went on facebook she added me as a friend and then we chatted. While i was chatting to her my son-in-law, Mario, text me to phone him, as i’ve got free minutes for my friend and family 10 numbers, so i phoned him and it turned out that he’d broken down and thought Alan might be at home to give him a tow, but i was on my own, so couldn’t help him, but he managed to get hold of someone. Then my daughter, Lynne, phoned me to let me know that a new series of Without a Trace was starting on More4 and that James Masters was in it and she knows that i like him, but as i was chatting to Deb i decided to watch it on More4+1 at 11.00. so i carried on chatting to Deb until just after 11.00 then i said bye and went downstairs to watch the program.
00.11 i came up to my office to check my emails then got ready and went to bed.
Friday 30th May.
6.47 i woke up, no alarm today as i didn’t have to get up early, i got out of bed, put on a dressing gown and went to the toilet for a wee. Then i went back to bed, put the telly on and started watching GMTV, i must have dozed of again, because the next time i looked at the clock it was 9.00, so i got up and went in to check my emails then went downstairs.
9.25 i went in to the kitchen and made myself a pate sandwich and a cup of tea. Then watched the Jeremy Kyle Show, after that i started on the housework.
I do the kitchen first, so i put one of my James Blunt CDs on in the stereo on top of the fridge and listened to a bit of that, while i tidied the kitchen, then made a start on the polishing in the living room.
At 11.30 i made tea for myself and Alan, as i heard him moving about upstairs so i knew he was awake, i put mine in the living room and took his up and while i was up there i checked my emails again, and listened to my favourite track, which is what i do at the moment every time i check emails.
i went back down to the living room and sat in my reclining chair while i drank my tea then took my empty cup in to the kitchen and got the hoover out of the hall cupboard and did the hoovering downstairs, as Alan does upstairs for me.
Once the housework was done i went to the bathroom and had a bath, combed my hair and brushed my teeth, using Colgate Total. Then i got dressed in the bedroom, today i wore 100% cotton white bra from Tescos and 100% cotton white panties from Peacocks, my black, above the knee skirt and a dark blue top which i bought a while ago on the Isle of Sheppey, it’s made of 86% viscose and 4% elastane, it has a low V neck front, the bottom of the V sits between my bust, underneath the V it has a silver diamond shape attached to it, and the bottom of the garment also comes down to V.
Before i went back downstairs i checked my emails again and i had one from facebook letting me know that Deb had added me as a friend and i had to click a link to confirm this, which i did.
When i got downstairs i had a text message on my mobile so i read it, it was from Mario, he had used the car this morning it seemed ok at first but had broken down again, i told him i didn’t have a rope to help tow him back, which is what my daughter-in-law, Tina, was going to do, as my ex had taken all that type of stuff when he left. I said i’d try and sort something out, but i didn’t need to as Tina had found a ratchet strap and was going to do it with that.
i then got my book and sat in my reclining chair and proceeded to read. By then it was 1.58. i popped up a couple of times to check emails and to see how that film was doing, i’m downloading for Master. then just went back to my book.
5.05 i went into the kitchen, Alan came down to make tea and i got the dinner cooked, not that it took long, as tonight we had egg, chips and beans. I sat back in my recliner to drink my tea after i’d eaten my dinner, watched a bit of telly, then came up here to write this.
Haven't heard from Master yet today.
8.30 put the tv on in my bedroom to watch Britains Got Talent, that finished just before 10.00, i then went back on my PC, as i was having a text conversation, during the program, with a friend of mine from Burnley, her name’s Deb. She suggested going on face book then we could chat on there instead of using up credit on our mobiles. So i went on facebook she added me as a friend and then we chatted. While i was chatting to her my son-in-law, Mario, text me to phone him, as i’ve got free minutes for my friend and family 10 numbers, so i phoned him and it turned out that he’d broken down and thought Alan might be at home to give him a tow, but i was on my own, so couldn’t help him, but he managed to get hold of someone. Then my daughter, Lynne, phoned me to let me know that a new series of Without a Trace was starting on More4 and that James Masters was in it and she knows that i like him, but as i was chatting to Deb i decided to watch it on More4+1 at 11.00. so i carried on chatting to Deb until just after 11.00 then i said bye and went downstairs to watch the program.
00.11 i came up to my office to check my emails then got ready and went to bed.
Friday 30th May.
6.47 i woke up, no alarm today as i didn’t have to get up early, i got out of bed, put on a dressing gown and went to the toilet for a wee. Then i went back to bed, put the telly on and started watching GMTV, i must have dozed of again, because the next time i looked at the clock it was 9.00, so i got up and went in to check my emails then went downstairs.
9.25 i went in to the kitchen and made myself a pate sandwich and a cup of tea. Then watched the Jeremy Kyle Show, after that i started on the housework.
I do the kitchen first, so i put one of my James Blunt CDs on in the stereo on top of the fridge and listened to a bit of that, while i tidied the kitchen, then made a start on the polishing in the living room.
At 11.30 i made tea for myself and Alan, as i heard him moving about upstairs so i knew he was awake, i put mine in the living room and took his up and while i was up there i checked my emails again, and listened to my favourite track, which is what i do at the moment every time i check emails.
i went back down to the living room and sat in my reclining chair while i drank my tea then took my empty cup in to the kitchen and got the hoover out of the hall cupboard and did the hoovering downstairs, as Alan does upstairs for me.
Once the housework was done i went to the bathroom and had a bath, combed my hair and brushed my teeth, using Colgate Total. Then i got dressed in the bedroom, today i wore 100% cotton white bra from Tescos and 100% cotton white panties from Peacocks, my black, above the knee skirt and a dark blue top which i bought a while ago on the Isle of Sheppey, it’s made of 86% viscose and 4% elastane, it has a low V neck front, the bottom of the V sits between my bust, underneath the V it has a silver diamond shape attached to it, and the bottom of the garment also comes down to V.
Before i went back downstairs i checked my emails again and i had one from facebook letting me know that Deb had added me as a friend and i had to click a link to confirm this, which i did.
When i got downstairs i had a text message on my mobile so i read it, it was from Mario, he had used the car this morning it seemed ok at first but had broken down again, i told him i didn’t have a rope to help tow him back, which is what my daughter-in-law, Tina, was going to do, as my ex had taken all that type of stuff when he left. I said i’d try and sort something out, but i didn’t need to as Tina had found a ratchet strap and was going to do it with that.
i then got my book and sat in my reclining chair and proceeded to read. By then it was 1.58. i popped up a couple of times to check emails and to see how that film was doing, i’m downloading for Master. then just went back to my book.
5.05 i went into the kitchen, Alan came down to make tea and i got the dinner cooked, not that it took long, as tonight we had egg, chips and beans. I sat back in my recliner to drink my tea after i’d eaten my dinner, watched a bit of telly, then came up here to write this.
Haven't heard from Master yet today.
Thursday 29 May 2008
i changed in to a t shirt last night, so that if it stopped raining, i was ready to go out to take the photos Master wants.
7.25 checked emails, there was one from Master asking where His photos were, so i replied with the same as i put in last nights blog.
i went downstairs to watch telly and eat my dinner. Alan cooked last night, the only thing i had to do was put the Yorkshire batter together as he’s not sure how much to make, we had mince and onions, Yorkshire and potatoes with gravy.
8.09 i came upstairs to check emails again, nothing from Master to my reply to the earlier one. then i started downloading again, that film Master wants is taking ages because there’s not may people to get it from and if Alan is downloading as well it slows mine right down. That’s why i normally do my downloading late at night.
i went back downstairs to watch Britains Got Talent, but popped up to check emails at 9.30. Still nothing. Went back and finished what i was watching, then came up to my PC again and listened to that track by Motley Crew i like so much, a couple of times and read some of the web blogs on Informed Consent. At 10.30 i went in my bedroom and got ready for bed, got in to bed and read some of my book, then went to sleep about 11.30.
Thursday 29th May.
my alarm went off at 6.30 this morning, got up earlier as i’m leaving the house earlier. Sat up in bed and watched the local news, then went to the toilet for a wee, and got myself bathed and wet and combed my hair and brushed my teeth, then in the bedroom i went through the wardrobe to find something to wear, i wore the black skirt i wore yesterday again today, i put on a white Closest bra and thong set the i bought from Peacocks, with a lacy pattern on the bra cups and the front of the thong. A white top that has long sleeves, with a lacy type pattern half way up and at the bottom of the sleeve, it has the same pattern round the neck, just under the bust and down the V at the front which crosses over through the middle of the bust, it is 100% cotton and my son David bought it for me a couple of years ago for my birthday from Next. I didn’t put stocking and suspenders on again this morning.
One of the tutors from college (Dave) was picking me up today so i didn’t have to wake Alan up. he was supposed to turn up at 7.45 but turned up just after 8.00 because he couldn’t find my road and had to text me. Brian had text me to say that he was running late so would meet us at 8.15 instead of 8.00 as arranged at Macdonalds. This used to be a weekly thing when Andrew worked at our college but since he left we haven’t done it, so we decided to do it this week, not sure if it’s going to become a weekly thing again. me and Dave got there first and ordered breakfast, then Brian turned up and got his breakfast. When we had finished, we left and i got in Brians car because i can smoke in his car, Dave doesn’t smoke, we arrived at college at 8.45.
Went in to the staff room and sat next to Brian at his desk, while we went through the jobs that we needed to do today, and he checked his emails and replied to them. At 10.00 i made myself a cup of tea.
10.40 we went in to one of the classroom, it is the workshop class, room 25, we took last weeks assessments with us so that we could get them marked. i put the teachers PC on and put virgin classic on for background music while i started sorting out the assessments. Brian had to disappear to send a couple of faxes, so i got on with the marking.
Stopped for lunch at 12.15, i only had a packet of quavers as i’d had breakfast. Waited while Brian had his lunch and then at 12.33 we left college and walked over to Sainsburys, we walked because the sun was shining and it was really warm out. Brian only wanted to use the cash point, but when we got over there he decided that he wanted some shopping so we went in, and by the time we got back to the college car park it was 1.09. i had bought a frijj chocolate milkshake, and Brian had bought a smoothie so we sat in his car and drank those. Then we went back into college at 1.25.
Brian went in to the staffroom, i got his keys and let myself in to our workshop and then in to the back entrance of room 25, to carry on with the marking. 2.45 we finished the marking and i started to strip the PCs down that were used for last weeks assessments to get them ready for next weeks.
4.05 i went in to another classroom known as Cisco ( we have a Cisco academy at our college), because there is a class in there on Saturday and the routers needed to be wiped of any configs. So i did that and then at 4.25 i went back to the staffroom to get my jacket and left.
Alan picked me up and we got home4.43, i did the usual and put my shoes, flat again today, and jacket in the hall cupboard. then went upstairs to check my emails . i didn’t have any, so i started the film downloading again, it’s up to 60%, then went and laid on my bed to do my relaxation exercises the hospital had given me, it just controlling my breathing at the moment.
5.52 my ex turned up and i made him a coffee, just as i got into the living room the house phone went and it was a sms message, from Master telling me to phone him, i started to reply with a text message when the house phone went again and it was Master asking about the photos he wanted, i asked him if i could phone him back as i had company and He asked me how long i said about half an hour, Master said i have 20 minutes and no more. So i got my ex to leave and then phoned Master back. He was not pleased with me as He said that He asked for these photos on Monday, but i checked and it was Tuesday, but still too long, i told Him that i will have them done tomorrow night no matter what the weather, so i have got to get them emailed to Him by midnight tomorrow. Master also said that He would phone me when He had more time as He had a job to get to in 20 minutes, i thanked Him for phoning me and We/we said bye and hung up, then i came in to my PC and wrote this.
7.25 checked emails, there was one from Master asking where His photos were, so i replied with the same as i put in last nights blog.
i went downstairs to watch telly and eat my dinner. Alan cooked last night, the only thing i had to do was put the Yorkshire batter together as he’s not sure how much to make, we had mince and onions, Yorkshire and potatoes with gravy.
8.09 i came upstairs to check emails again, nothing from Master to my reply to the earlier one. then i started downloading again, that film Master wants is taking ages because there’s not may people to get it from and if Alan is downloading as well it slows mine right down. That’s why i normally do my downloading late at night.
i went back downstairs to watch Britains Got Talent, but popped up to check emails at 9.30. Still nothing. Went back and finished what i was watching, then came up to my PC again and listened to that track by Motley Crew i like so much, a couple of times and read some of the web blogs on Informed Consent. At 10.30 i went in my bedroom and got ready for bed, got in to bed and read some of my book, then went to sleep about 11.30.
Thursday 29th May.
my alarm went off at 6.30 this morning, got up earlier as i’m leaving the house earlier. Sat up in bed and watched the local news, then went to the toilet for a wee, and got myself bathed and wet and combed my hair and brushed my teeth, then in the bedroom i went through the wardrobe to find something to wear, i wore the black skirt i wore yesterday again today, i put on a white Closest bra and thong set the i bought from Peacocks, with a lacy pattern on the bra cups and the front of the thong. A white top that has long sleeves, with a lacy type pattern half way up and at the bottom of the sleeve, it has the same pattern round the neck, just under the bust and down the V at the front which crosses over through the middle of the bust, it is 100% cotton and my son David bought it for me a couple of years ago for my birthday from Next. I didn’t put stocking and suspenders on again this morning.
One of the tutors from college (Dave) was picking me up today so i didn’t have to wake Alan up. he was supposed to turn up at 7.45 but turned up just after 8.00 because he couldn’t find my road and had to text me. Brian had text me to say that he was running late so would meet us at 8.15 instead of 8.00 as arranged at Macdonalds. This used to be a weekly thing when Andrew worked at our college but since he left we haven’t done it, so we decided to do it this week, not sure if it’s going to become a weekly thing again. me and Dave got there first and ordered breakfast, then Brian turned up and got his breakfast. When we had finished, we left and i got in Brians car because i can smoke in his car, Dave doesn’t smoke, we arrived at college at 8.45.
Went in to the staff room and sat next to Brian at his desk, while we went through the jobs that we needed to do today, and he checked his emails and replied to them. At 10.00 i made myself a cup of tea.
10.40 we went in to one of the classroom, it is the workshop class, room 25, we took last weeks assessments with us so that we could get them marked. i put the teachers PC on and put virgin classic on for background music while i started sorting out the assessments. Brian had to disappear to send a couple of faxes, so i got on with the marking.
Stopped for lunch at 12.15, i only had a packet of quavers as i’d had breakfast. Waited while Brian had his lunch and then at 12.33 we left college and walked over to Sainsburys, we walked because the sun was shining and it was really warm out. Brian only wanted to use the cash point, but when we got over there he decided that he wanted some shopping so we went in, and by the time we got back to the college car park it was 1.09. i had bought a frijj chocolate milkshake, and Brian had bought a smoothie so we sat in his car and drank those. Then we went back into college at 1.25.
Brian went in to the staffroom, i got his keys and let myself in to our workshop and then in to the back entrance of room 25, to carry on with the marking. 2.45 we finished the marking and i started to strip the PCs down that were used for last weeks assessments to get them ready for next weeks.
4.05 i went in to another classroom known as Cisco ( we have a Cisco academy at our college), because there is a class in there on Saturday and the routers needed to be wiped of any configs. So i did that and then at 4.25 i went back to the staffroom to get my jacket and left.
Alan picked me up and we got home4.43, i did the usual and put my shoes, flat again today, and jacket in the hall cupboard. then went upstairs to check my emails . i didn’t have any, so i started the film downloading again, it’s up to 60%, then went and laid on my bed to do my relaxation exercises the hospital had given me, it just controlling my breathing at the moment.
5.52 my ex turned up and i made him a coffee, just as i got into the living room the house phone went and it was a sms message, from Master telling me to phone him, i started to reply with a text message when the house phone went again and it was Master asking about the photos he wanted, i asked him if i could phone him back as i had company and He asked me how long i said about half an hour, Master said i have 20 minutes and no more. So i got my ex to leave and then phoned Master back. He was not pleased with me as He said that He asked for these photos on Monday, but i checked and it was Tuesday, but still too long, i told Him that i will have them done tomorrow night no matter what the weather, so i have got to get them emailed to Him by midnight tomorrow. Master also said that He would phone me when He had more time as He had a job to get to in 20 minutes, i thanked Him for phoning me and We/we said bye and hung up, then i came in to my PC and wrote this.
Wednesday 28 May 2008
i went downstairs to read some more of my book, but decded to put the telly on instead as, i was in some pain last night and i couldn’t get back in to my book, because i couldn’t concentrate. So i watched tv instead, not that i can remember what i watched, oh yes, i watched Holby City from 8.00 till almost 9.00, then something else started and i didn’t get to see any of that because my daughter(Lynne) phoned me. We chatted away until 9.25 then we hung up.
Went up to my PC, as Alan had told me he had just downloaded a track i wanted, and had put it in my shared folder, so i went to listen to it, it’s a track by Motley Crew, who i don’t normally listen to, called If I Die Tomorrow. I heard it when i was in the shop on Monday and fell in love with it ,so as Alan was downloading tunes for himself i asked him to download that one for me. i listened to it a couple of times.
i then went in my bedroom and put the telly on and started watching the news, i was going to go out to take the pictures Master wanted, i took a couple of my pain killers, and must have fallen asleep as the next thing i knew i woke up and it was 1.34, so i didn’t got out instead i got undressed and got in to bed, and fell straight back off to sleep.
7.00, my alarm woke me up. i sat up in bed and switched the telly on to watch the local news to see what the weather was going to be like today. 7.15 went to the bathroom for a weenad while i was in there i got washed and washed and combed my hair, shaved my legs and armpits and then brushed my teeth. then back to the bedroom to get dressed, as it was supposed to be warm today and as it’s half term, i was going to put on jeans and a vest tshirt, but when i went to my wardrobe i realised that only my black jeans sort of fit me, because i’ve lost weight not much fits me anymore. So i had to wear one of my pin striped skirts until i can get some more clothes. So i put on, black 100% cotton bra and panties both Florence and Fred bought from Tescos, size 38D, with a ¾ cup, the George black pin striped skirt, which is below the knee length, size 14 and getting too big for me already, it’s the one i bought from Asdas a few weeks ago, and the black Atmosphere top, 50% cotton and 50% Modal, size 16-18, with a tie attached to it that has little stars on it in light blue, pink and orange, that i bought ages ago from Peacocks. i didn’t bother with stocking and suspenders today.
7.52 i turned the telly off and went and made tea for myself and Alan, took his up and woke him up. i went back down and watched GMTV while i waited for him to get ready and we left for college at 8.23.
Got to college at 8.39. college was quiet today because there weren’t any students in and the bosses weren’t in either so nobody seemed in any hurry to do any work today. i went in the kitchen to make myself a cup of tea, and tutors, Mandy, Heidi and Jill were in there so after i made tea i sat down with them and we were chatting, as Jill had been to a singles club and wanted to tell everyone about it, because she had met someone there that she liked. So we chatted for a while then we all went to the staffroom and i sat down next to Brian, who was checking and replying to his emails. he had to take his car down to the motor vehicle department of the college so while he was gone i checked my emails and didn’t have any from Master, checked my college emails not a lot there that i wanted so deleted those. Then when Brin came back we went in to one of the classrooms and got out 10 PCs so that we could put an XP image on them, because on the 18th June there is going to be a Skill Build competition held at our college and we are supplying some of the stuff needed so we thought if we got the PCs ready that was one job out of the way.
Stopped for lunch at 12.15 and i walked over to Sainsbury as i hadn’t brought my lunch with me today and the canteen was shut. i bought myself a chicken and stuffing sandwich and a milky way, walked back to college, sat in the kitchen and ate half the sandwich and half the milky way, because that’s all i wanted. Sat talking to Ying, the bosses secretary, for a little while then i went back to Brians desk to check my emails again, and had a chat to another tutor John, about health problems, and hospitals. When Brian came back in we made tea and coffee and went back to the classroom to finish off the PCs we were doing, and discussing what else we needed to get rid of ready for our move. Once we’d packed everything away and locked the PCs away we made another tea and coffee and went back to the staffroom. Brian told me he was going to leave at 4.30 so i text Alan to let him know to pick me up at that time.
Left college at 4.30 and was home by 4.43 because leaving early there’s no traffic about and can get home quicker. After taking my jacket and shoes off, i wore flats today, i went upstairs to check my emails nothing from Master and not a lot on my ntl account. So i just browsed for a while, went on Amazon to look at the price of another book and read the reviews for it. then listened to some music then before i knew it, it was time to write this, and it’s exactly 7.00 so i’m going to post now.
Went up to my PC, as Alan had told me he had just downloaded a track i wanted, and had put it in my shared folder, so i went to listen to it, it’s a track by Motley Crew, who i don’t normally listen to, called If I Die Tomorrow. I heard it when i was in the shop on Monday and fell in love with it ,so as Alan was downloading tunes for himself i asked him to download that one for me. i listened to it a couple of times.
i then went in my bedroom and put the telly on and started watching the news, i was going to go out to take the pictures Master wanted, i took a couple of my pain killers, and must have fallen asleep as the next thing i knew i woke up and it was 1.34, so i didn’t got out instead i got undressed and got in to bed, and fell straight back off to sleep.
7.00, my alarm woke me up. i sat up in bed and switched the telly on to watch the local news to see what the weather was going to be like today. 7.15 went to the bathroom for a weenad while i was in there i got washed and washed and combed my hair, shaved my legs and armpits and then brushed my teeth. then back to the bedroom to get dressed, as it was supposed to be warm today and as it’s half term, i was going to put on jeans and a vest tshirt, but when i went to my wardrobe i realised that only my black jeans sort of fit me, because i’ve lost weight not much fits me anymore. So i had to wear one of my pin striped skirts until i can get some more clothes. So i put on, black 100% cotton bra and panties both Florence and Fred bought from Tescos, size 38D, with a ¾ cup, the George black pin striped skirt, which is below the knee length, size 14 and getting too big for me already, it’s the one i bought from Asdas a few weeks ago, and the black Atmosphere top, 50% cotton and 50% Modal, size 16-18, with a tie attached to it that has little stars on it in light blue, pink and orange, that i bought ages ago from Peacocks. i didn’t bother with stocking and suspenders today.
7.52 i turned the telly off and went and made tea for myself and Alan, took his up and woke him up. i went back down and watched GMTV while i waited for him to get ready and we left for college at 8.23.
Got to college at 8.39. college was quiet today because there weren’t any students in and the bosses weren’t in either so nobody seemed in any hurry to do any work today. i went in the kitchen to make myself a cup of tea, and tutors, Mandy, Heidi and Jill were in there so after i made tea i sat down with them and we were chatting, as Jill had been to a singles club and wanted to tell everyone about it, because she had met someone there that she liked. So we chatted for a while then we all went to the staffroom and i sat down next to Brian, who was checking and replying to his emails. he had to take his car down to the motor vehicle department of the college so while he was gone i checked my emails and didn’t have any from Master, checked my college emails not a lot there that i wanted so deleted those. Then when Brin came back we went in to one of the classrooms and got out 10 PCs so that we could put an XP image on them, because on the 18th June there is going to be a Skill Build competition held at our college and we are supplying some of the stuff needed so we thought if we got the PCs ready that was one job out of the way.
Stopped for lunch at 12.15 and i walked over to Sainsbury as i hadn’t brought my lunch with me today and the canteen was shut. i bought myself a chicken and stuffing sandwich and a milky way, walked back to college, sat in the kitchen and ate half the sandwich and half the milky way, because that’s all i wanted. Sat talking to Ying, the bosses secretary, for a little while then i went back to Brians desk to check my emails again, and had a chat to another tutor John, about health problems, and hospitals. When Brian came back in we made tea and coffee and went back to the classroom to finish off the PCs we were doing, and discussing what else we needed to get rid of ready for our move. Once we’d packed everything away and locked the PCs away we made another tea and coffee and went back to the staffroom. Brian told me he was going to leave at 4.30 so i text Alan to let him know to pick me up at that time.
Left college at 4.30 and was home by 4.43 because leaving early there’s no traffic about and can get home quicker. After taking my jacket and shoes off, i wore flats today, i went upstairs to check my emails nothing from Master and not a lot on my ntl account. So i just browsed for a while, went on Amazon to look at the price of another book and read the reviews for it. then listened to some music then before i knew it, it was time to write this, and it’s exactly 7.00 so i’m going to post now.
Tuesday 27 May 2008
As i didn’t post till quite late last night, i haven’t got a lot to write for the rest of the night. i basically put the telly on in my bedroom and sat on the bed watching that and every now and then i went back to my PC to check for an email from Master, which there wasn’t any. i got ready for bed at 10.32 and then as i got into bed a film was just starting on Channel 4, called Basic, with Samuel L Jackson and John Travolta in, so i watched that. It finished at about 12.25 and then i settled down and went to sleep.
Tuesday 27th May
i woke up at 7.43 this morning, put on my tartan patterned dressing gown and went to the bathroom to go for a wee, then went in to my office to check to see if i had received an email from Master yet, but there was nothing. I checked other emails then at 7.57 i went downstairs to make tea for myself and my son. i took his up to him and also brought mine up as well, i took mine into my bedroom and sat on the bed watching GMTV as well as checking emails on the PC.
9.14 i went in to the bathroom and got washed, washed my hair made sure my armpits were shaved, and brushed my teeth. then i got dressed as i was going to the hospital today i decided i’d wear jeans. So i put on a white 100% cotton bra from Tescos, my black Belcie jeans and a cerise coloured low cut Evie t shirt, no panties today as i’m wearing jeans and i was told before by Master that if i wore trousers or jeans not to wear them, so i’m not.
i watched a bit more telly, then at 10.10 i went to check my emails again, i seem to do that a lot.
This time i had one from Master.
He said that He wasn’t around yesterday as He had gone to see friends as it was bank holiday, but said that He was back now. He asked me how i was today and then asked me if i got up to anything that He needed to know about, not quite sure why He asked that. He then asked me if i had got my blog up to date, if i hadn’t i must do it by the end of today. He then gave me 2 jobs to be done by 9.00 tonight. One was to download a GGG film and keep hold of it till He asks for me to send it to Him via msn and the second was to take 3 photos of myself topless outside and all 3 had to be done in different places. He then went on to say that i had to do as He says, i have NO choice, and to remember who He is.
i replied straight away saying that my blog was up to date, i told Master that i had started it again on Saturday, then i told Him that i was already downloading a couple GGG films for Him but they were taking a while. I asked Him if i could take the photos later as the time He wanted me to take them by, it would still be light out and it is school holidays this week so would find it hard to find somewhere quiet to take them, as i don’t drive so couldn’t go out anywhere.
Master was signed in to msn but didn’t reply to my email, so i went downstairs and made myself fried egg on toast, 2 eggs and 2 toast, because otherwise i would be hungry while i was at the hospital, after i'd eaten that, the postman turned up and a book was delivered that i had ordered last week through Amazon, it’s called Erotic Surrender : The Sensual Joys of Female Submission. i was looking through Amazon last week and this book had got a couple of good reviews so i thought as it was cheap i could afford it, so i ordered it. i went and made tea took my tea in to the living room opened the packet and started to read the book.
i didn’t want to do too much today because of having a three hour appointment up the hospital and wasn’t sure what was going to be done to me, so didn’t want to be in pain before i went. i would normally walk to the hospital but today i thought i’d get Alan to take me in the car. So i carried on reading the book until 2.05, put my black Nike trainers and a denim jacket on, then gave Alan a shout, he was playing GTA4 on his PS3 in his bedroom, and told him i was ready to go. i left early as i wasn’t sure where abouts in the hospital i had to go and don’t like being late for things.
So i spent just over 3 hours in there, it was talks from different people about what was going to happen over the next 8 appointments, half way through we stopped for tea and a stretch, then at the end we were given a relaxation CD, a pedometer and a timer. The Cd is self explanatory, the pedometer is to see how much i do in a day and when i’ve done three days with it i have to find the average and use that to set my limit on what i do in a day and use the timer as an alarm so i don’t do too much. Once i got outside i phoned Alan to pick me up, and then just waited for him, which wasn’t long, he picked me up at 5.45 then we went home. i took my jacket off and hung it up in the hall cupboard and put my trainers in there also in the shoe rack i have in there, then sat down and started reading my book again until i realised the time was getting on and i had this to write, before i started to write this i did the usual and checked my emails, i had a reply from Master saying that i could take the photos when i could as long as He got them.
So it’s now 7.40 and i’m going to post this and then probably get back to my book.
Tuesday 27th May
i woke up at 7.43 this morning, put on my tartan patterned dressing gown and went to the bathroom to go for a wee, then went in to my office to check to see if i had received an email from Master yet, but there was nothing. I checked other emails then at 7.57 i went downstairs to make tea for myself and my son. i took his up to him and also brought mine up as well, i took mine into my bedroom and sat on the bed watching GMTV as well as checking emails on the PC.
9.14 i went in to the bathroom and got washed, washed my hair made sure my armpits were shaved, and brushed my teeth. then i got dressed as i was going to the hospital today i decided i’d wear jeans. So i put on a white 100% cotton bra from Tescos, my black Belcie jeans and a cerise coloured low cut Evie t shirt, no panties today as i’m wearing jeans and i was told before by Master that if i wore trousers or jeans not to wear them, so i’m not.
i watched a bit more telly, then at 10.10 i went to check my emails again, i seem to do that a lot.
This time i had one from Master.
He said that He wasn’t around yesterday as He had gone to see friends as it was bank holiday, but said that He was back now. He asked me how i was today and then asked me if i got up to anything that He needed to know about, not quite sure why He asked that. He then asked me if i had got my blog up to date, if i hadn’t i must do it by the end of today. He then gave me 2 jobs to be done by 9.00 tonight. One was to download a GGG film and keep hold of it till He asks for me to send it to Him via msn and the second was to take 3 photos of myself topless outside and all 3 had to be done in different places. He then went on to say that i had to do as He says, i have NO choice, and to remember who He is.
i replied straight away saying that my blog was up to date, i told Master that i had started it again on Saturday, then i told Him that i was already downloading a couple GGG films for Him but they were taking a while. I asked Him if i could take the photos later as the time He wanted me to take them by, it would still be light out and it is school holidays this week so would find it hard to find somewhere quiet to take them, as i don’t drive so couldn’t go out anywhere.
Master was signed in to msn but didn’t reply to my email, so i went downstairs and made myself fried egg on toast, 2 eggs and 2 toast, because otherwise i would be hungry while i was at the hospital, after i'd eaten that, the postman turned up and a book was delivered that i had ordered last week through Amazon, it’s called Erotic Surrender : The Sensual Joys of Female Submission. i was looking through Amazon last week and this book had got a couple of good reviews so i thought as it was cheap i could afford it, so i ordered it. i went and made tea took my tea in to the living room opened the packet and started to read the book.
i didn’t want to do too much today because of having a three hour appointment up the hospital and wasn’t sure what was going to be done to me, so didn’t want to be in pain before i went. i would normally walk to the hospital but today i thought i’d get Alan to take me in the car. So i carried on reading the book until 2.05, put my black Nike trainers and a denim jacket on, then gave Alan a shout, he was playing GTA4 on his PS3 in his bedroom, and told him i was ready to go. i left early as i wasn’t sure where abouts in the hospital i had to go and don’t like being late for things.
So i spent just over 3 hours in there, it was talks from different people about what was going to happen over the next 8 appointments, half way through we stopped for tea and a stretch, then at the end we were given a relaxation CD, a pedometer and a timer. The Cd is self explanatory, the pedometer is to see how much i do in a day and when i’ve done three days with it i have to find the average and use that to set my limit on what i do in a day and use the timer as an alarm so i don’t do too much. Once i got outside i phoned Alan to pick me up, and then just waited for him, which wasn’t long, he picked me up at 5.45 then we went home. i took my jacket off and hung it up in the hall cupboard and put my trainers in there also in the shoe rack i have in there, then sat down and started reading my book again until i realised the time was getting on and i had this to write, before i started to write this i did the usual and checked my emails, i had a reply from Master saying that i could take the photos when i could as long as He got them.
So it’s now 7.40 and i’m going to post this and then probably get back to my book.
Monday 26 May 2008
Last night after i posted i went in to my bedroom and watched telly for a while. Then i went back on my PC and decided to read some of the topics on the web boards on the Informed Consent site. After that i played some solitaire on the PC and then caught my ex’s brother (Steve) on msn, we still treat each other like brother and sister and are still very close. He had found some photos of New Years Eve 2003 and thought i might like couple of them, so he emailed them to me. Then he phoned me and we had a chat and a laugh for about an hour. After i hung up from him, it was about 10.15, i checked my emails again and as i hadn’t got anything from Master, i decided to get ready for bed.
10.37 i went to bed.
Not sure how long i was in bed for because i didn’t look at the time, the phone went and i sat up in bed, put the light on and answered the phone. It was Master, We/we had a chat and He wanted to know if i wanted to ask Him anything, about pleasing Him, i just couldn’t think of anything to ask, which didn’t please Him, but He got me to play with myself anyway, which was good. He got me to play with my clit for ages without an orgasm, i had to keep slowing down but was not allowed to stop. i really wanted to orgasm but was told “no”, then He made me put a finger in my cunt and finger fuck myself hard and He asked if i wanted to orgasm, and i said yes, so He said 2 minutes and He told me He would say when and i had to orgasm when He said i could. i’m getting more used to having an orgasm when He says, but still find it hard not to orgasm before He says i can. As usual Master was talking to me while i was masturbating. While i was on my clit Master talked about a film He was watching, then He talked about my visit with Him, what He was going to do, and that is, slap me between the legs, my tits, around my face and my arse, and He is going to leave a red mark between my legs. He then went on to say He would then tie me up and fuck me bareback. After i had orgasmed He said i could go to sleep, and He told me He would email me in the morning and i had to answer it by 4.00 pm, said good night, i said good night and then hung up, i went to the bathroom to clean up and then settled down to sleep.
Monday 26th May
Woke up at 7.13 and put the telly on. Got out of bed and put a dressing gown on, and went straight into the office to check my emails. Master had left one last night telling me to phone Him as soon as i saw the email and He put the day and time He wrote it, but as i had already gone to bed, He had phoned me.
7.42 went to the bathroom to use the toilet, then back to watch telly. At 8.03 i went back in to the bathroom and had a bath, wet and combed my hair, and brushed my teeth, then back to the bedroom to get dressed. i was at the shop today, we were trying to prove to our boss that we would make money even on a bank holiday, so i wore my usual black jeans, white polo shirt with shop name on it, plain white bra and panties and my black Nike trainers.
After i got dressed iturned the telly off in my bedroom and went downstairs to make myself a cup of tea, didn’y have to get Alan up today because the other two guys i was working with today live local to me so one of them picked me up. i put the telly on in the living room and watched GMTV and drank my tea while i waited for my lift. Fluffy (John) turned up at 9.20, so i left and we went to the shop.
Got to the shop at 9.43, we were actually quite busy today because in between customers we were rearranging the layout of the shop. We had a couple of jobs in that we did while the customers waited and we sold one of our refurbished second hand PCs. If we didn’t make any money today none of us were going to be paid, as it was all three of us got paid. The whole time i was there i had msn open and i didn’t receive any emails from Master at all.
i got home at 4.34, came in, hung my jacket up and took my trainers off, put my slippers on and went straight upstairs to check my emails, still nothing from Master, i stayed on the PC for a while then at 5.15 my son David and his wife Tina turned up, they had been away for the weekend to Yarmouth, and they had brought me back a present, it was a vibrator and he’d put batteries in it. i told him that i don’t use toys, he just laughed, and told me to keep it just in case.
Alan wanted his desk cut to fit better in his room, as i didn’t have a saw Tina drove home and got theirs, and any other tolls she thought they might need, when she got back David and Alan got on with that and me and Tina sat and chatted. They left at 8.42. i came back up to my office, still no emails from Master, so i got on with writing this. It’s going to be later as Master likes this posted by 7.00 but i couldn’t leave Tina on her own while i did this, that would have been ignorant.
It’s now 9.17 and i’m going to post it now.
10.37 i went to bed.
Not sure how long i was in bed for because i didn’t look at the time, the phone went and i sat up in bed, put the light on and answered the phone. It was Master, We/we had a chat and He wanted to know if i wanted to ask Him anything, about pleasing Him, i just couldn’t think of anything to ask, which didn’t please Him, but He got me to play with myself anyway, which was good. He got me to play with my clit for ages without an orgasm, i had to keep slowing down but was not allowed to stop. i really wanted to orgasm but was told “no”, then He made me put a finger in my cunt and finger fuck myself hard and He asked if i wanted to orgasm, and i said yes, so He said 2 minutes and He told me He would say when and i had to orgasm when He said i could. i’m getting more used to having an orgasm when He says, but still find it hard not to orgasm before He says i can. As usual Master was talking to me while i was masturbating. While i was on my clit Master talked about a film He was watching, then He talked about my visit with Him, what He was going to do, and that is, slap me between the legs, my tits, around my face and my arse, and He is going to leave a red mark between my legs. He then went on to say He would then tie me up and fuck me bareback. After i had orgasmed He said i could go to sleep, and He told me He would email me in the morning and i had to answer it by 4.00 pm, said good night, i said good night and then hung up, i went to the bathroom to clean up and then settled down to sleep.
Monday 26th May
Woke up at 7.13 and put the telly on. Got out of bed and put a dressing gown on, and went straight into the office to check my emails. Master had left one last night telling me to phone Him as soon as i saw the email and He put the day and time He wrote it, but as i had already gone to bed, He had phoned me.
7.42 went to the bathroom to use the toilet, then back to watch telly. At 8.03 i went back in to the bathroom and had a bath, wet and combed my hair, and brushed my teeth, then back to the bedroom to get dressed. i was at the shop today, we were trying to prove to our boss that we would make money even on a bank holiday, so i wore my usual black jeans, white polo shirt with shop name on it, plain white bra and panties and my black Nike trainers.
After i got dressed iturned the telly off in my bedroom and went downstairs to make myself a cup of tea, didn’y have to get Alan up today because the other two guys i was working with today live local to me so one of them picked me up. i put the telly on in the living room and watched GMTV and drank my tea while i waited for my lift. Fluffy (John) turned up at 9.20, so i left and we went to the shop.
Got to the shop at 9.43, we were actually quite busy today because in between customers we were rearranging the layout of the shop. We had a couple of jobs in that we did while the customers waited and we sold one of our refurbished second hand PCs. If we didn’t make any money today none of us were going to be paid, as it was all three of us got paid. The whole time i was there i had msn open and i didn’t receive any emails from Master at all.
i got home at 4.34, came in, hung my jacket up and took my trainers off, put my slippers on and went straight upstairs to check my emails, still nothing from Master, i stayed on the PC for a while then at 5.15 my son David and his wife Tina turned up, they had been away for the weekend to Yarmouth, and they had brought me back a present, it was a vibrator and he’d put batteries in it. i told him that i don’t use toys, he just laughed, and told me to keep it just in case.
Alan wanted his desk cut to fit better in his room, as i didn’t have a saw Tina drove home and got theirs, and any other tolls she thought they might need, when she got back David and Alan got on with that and me and Tina sat and chatted. They left at 8.42. i came back up to my office, still no emails from Master, so i got on with writing this. It’s going to be later as Master likes this posted by 7.00 but i couldn’t leave Tina on her own while i did this, that would have been ignorant.
It’s now 9.17 and i’m going to post it now.
Sunday 25 May 2008
i didn’t leave till 8.00 last night, i left it till the last possible minute just in case i received an email from Master to say whether i can go or not. i didn’t so i went anyway.
i wore plain white 100% cotton bra and panties, nearly black stockings and white suspenders, my shortish red skirt, a low cut cotton white top, that came to just above my bra, and i wore heels.
i had a couple of weak Bacardi and Cokes, as i was talking to old friends i didn’t really bother with the drink.
Left there and got home at 1.10 am. Went straight to my office to check my emails. There was one from Master, saying that i may go, so i’m glad that He didn’t mind, and also saying that i had to be online on msn at 10.00 in the morning.
i then got ready for bed said goodnight to my son and went to bed, i woke up a couple of times, once at 6.27 and then at 7.13, but i just looked at the time and turned over and went back to sleep each time as i didn’t have to get up early.
i woke up again at 8.43 and thought that i had better get up this time so that i could get ready for when i had to go online. i got out of bed put on a light blue fleece dressing gown, that i bought from QS last year on the Isle of Sheppey in Kent and used down my caravan. It is a wrap round one, size 16/18. I went to the bathroom to use the toilet and while i was in there i got washed , washed and combed my hair and brushed my teeth. Then went back to the bedroom to get dressed, today i wore a Closer, patterned white 100% cotton bra and thong i bought from Peacocks, a black skirt and a white top which has 4 buttons down the front, both also bought from Peacocks.
9.20 went to check emails on my ntl account. Then at 10.00 i went online to chat to Master.
He asked me how my night out was, i told Him it was fine, He asked me what time i got in, so i told Him, He then asked did i drink, so i answered that, and then He wanted to know what i wore so i explained to Him what i wore, He asked how low the top was so i told Him, and He replied that is how i should be dressed. He went on to say that He was glad i had written about pain in my email to Him yesterday, and then told me that in a week or two He wants me to go up to see Him, He’ll pay. i said yes Master and He asked did i understand and i replied yes, thank You Master.
He then told me to put my web cam on, so i did. He then went on to ask why my buttons were done up on my top, i replied that i have never undone them since i’ve had the top and proceeded to undo them, He said that was no answer. Once i had undone them He said that a black collar would look good around my neck.
Master told me to get my right nipple out, which i did, and He told me to play with it and get it hard, so i did, when it was hard i asked if it was hard enough, He replied no. He told me to caress it more. He asked me if it felt good i said it did. He then said to move my chair away from the PC and to read and do. So i did. Then told me to take my top off, i did this and folded it up and laid it on a chair. I was then told to play with both of my tits, after a little while of doing that, Master made me pull on my nipples hard, that hurts, but i do as i’m told, and He called me His obedient cunt .He then told me to stand up and let my skirt and panties fall to the floor and spread my legs. Master said “very nice” Then He wanted me to rub my mound with my right hand, which i did for a little while, and then He told me to stop and get dressed and sit back down at my PC. He asked me how that was, i said that it was good and He asked if i was aroused and i replied that i was. He said that is how i should be.
He then went on to say something about a GGG film to talk about later, but we had a power cut, so i looked outside and noticed the whole area was out, i could see this as the weather was bad with torrential rain and thunder so neighbours had lights on and now there were none on. i picked up my mobile and phoned Master to explain what had happened and He told me to email Him as soon as the power was back, i asked Him what GGG was and He told me to google it. Then said bye.
So for over an hour i couldn’t go on my PC, watch telly or listen to music, so i just did my Sudoku puzzles until my power came back on, then i emailed Master.
I watched telly in my bedroom for a while and kept popping in to my office to check emails and the downloading i was doing.
At 3.45 i went down to the kitchen and put dinner on, today we had chicken, roast potatoes, peas and cauliflower. By 5.02 i had eaten my dinner and went back to my office to check emails again, haven’t had a reply from Master yet so i’m not sure what He wants from me, i did ask Him to explain in my email, but as i haven’t had a reply yet, i don’t know.
6.08, i’m at my PC playing solitaire and waiting for a reply from Master.
6.46, still no reply, so i’m going to post this, and will bring it up to date when i post tomorrow.
i wore plain white 100% cotton bra and panties, nearly black stockings and white suspenders, my shortish red skirt, a low cut cotton white top, that came to just above my bra, and i wore heels.
i had a couple of weak Bacardi and Cokes, as i was talking to old friends i didn’t really bother with the drink.
Left there and got home at 1.10 am. Went straight to my office to check my emails. There was one from Master, saying that i may go, so i’m glad that He didn’t mind, and also saying that i had to be online on msn at 10.00 in the morning.
i then got ready for bed said goodnight to my son and went to bed, i woke up a couple of times, once at 6.27 and then at 7.13, but i just looked at the time and turned over and went back to sleep each time as i didn’t have to get up early.
i woke up again at 8.43 and thought that i had better get up this time so that i could get ready for when i had to go online. i got out of bed put on a light blue fleece dressing gown, that i bought from QS last year on the Isle of Sheppey in Kent and used down my caravan. It is a wrap round one, size 16/18. I went to the bathroom to use the toilet and while i was in there i got washed , washed and combed my hair and brushed my teeth. Then went back to the bedroom to get dressed, today i wore a Closer, patterned white 100% cotton bra and thong i bought from Peacocks, a black skirt and a white top which has 4 buttons down the front, both also bought from Peacocks.
9.20 went to check emails on my ntl account. Then at 10.00 i went online to chat to Master.
He asked me how my night out was, i told Him it was fine, He asked me what time i got in, so i told Him, He then asked did i drink, so i answered that, and then He wanted to know what i wore so i explained to Him what i wore, He asked how low the top was so i told Him, and He replied that is how i should be dressed. He went on to say that He was glad i had written about pain in my email to Him yesterday, and then told me that in a week or two He wants me to go up to see Him, He’ll pay. i said yes Master and He asked did i understand and i replied yes, thank You Master.
He then told me to put my web cam on, so i did. He then went on to ask why my buttons were done up on my top, i replied that i have never undone them since i’ve had the top and proceeded to undo them, He said that was no answer. Once i had undone them He said that a black collar would look good around my neck.
Master told me to get my right nipple out, which i did, and He told me to play with it and get it hard, so i did, when it was hard i asked if it was hard enough, He replied no. He told me to caress it more. He asked me if it felt good i said it did. He then said to move my chair away from the PC and to read and do. So i did. Then told me to take my top off, i did this and folded it up and laid it on a chair. I was then told to play with both of my tits, after a little while of doing that, Master made me pull on my nipples hard, that hurts, but i do as i’m told, and He called me His obedient cunt .He then told me to stand up and let my skirt and panties fall to the floor and spread my legs. Master said “very nice” Then He wanted me to rub my mound with my right hand, which i did for a little while, and then He told me to stop and get dressed and sit back down at my PC. He asked me how that was, i said that it was good and He asked if i was aroused and i replied that i was. He said that is how i should be.
He then went on to say something about a GGG film to talk about later, but we had a power cut, so i looked outside and noticed the whole area was out, i could see this as the weather was bad with torrential rain and thunder so neighbours had lights on and now there were none on. i picked up my mobile and phoned Master to explain what had happened and He told me to email Him as soon as the power was back, i asked Him what GGG was and He told me to google it. Then said bye.
So for over an hour i couldn’t go on my PC, watch telly or listen to music, so i just did my Sudoku puzzles until my power came back on, then i emailed Master.
I watched telly in my bedroom for a while and kept popping in to my office to check emails and the downloading i was doing.
At 3.45 i went down to the kitchen and put dinner on, today we had chicken, roast potatoes, peas and cauliflower. By 5.02 i had eaten my dinner and went back to my office to check emails again, haven’t had a reply from Master yet so i’m not sure what He wants from me, i did ask Him to explain in my email, but as i haven’t had a reply yet, i don’t know.
6.08, i’m at my PC playing solitaire and waiting for a reply from Master.
6.46, still no reply, so i’m going to post this, and will bring it up to date when i post tomorrow.
Saturday 24 May 2008
Update
Update
This is an update before i start writing my dailies again.
As you know in the last one, i wrote, i had walked away from Master, for ever i thought.
Well it wasn’t for ever because i just couldn’t live without Him. i tried for over a week but it was the most miserable week of my life.
Master emailed me on Sunday 18th, telling me i had to get back in line and do it by 7.00. The only problem was i didn’t see that message until Monday, so it was too late. He also left me a message on msn saying “come on talk to Me” i replied to Him saying i wanted to talk to Him but was scared and embarrassed.
i then found out, on Wednesday, that my phone line had a problem so i emailed Master asking Him if He had tried to phone me and explained about the fault but that it was fixed. He never replied.
On Thursday, i received an email from Master, asking me what is was i wanted and saying that if i want to be back by His side then i had to email Him, if not to never email Him again. i went on to msn and got hold of my sub friend lyn for some advice, i explained that i felt confused, did i really want a Master or just the idea of one, but then i told her how miserable i had been, we chatted for a while and she told me to go for it with Master, because if i didn’t i may regret it. i knew she was right so i told her i would email Him straight away, just as i sent that message to her, Master came online and sent me a message, it read “talk to Me bitch”, so i said hello to Him and he asked me why i wasn’t going to get back in line, i told Him i was just about to email Him so He told me to do that, and said bye.
So i emailed Him, i had to beg Him to come back to me, which i did. He then replied that He wanted me to prove it and i had 10 minutes to prove it. i sat and thought for a minute how to prove it, i knew He’d want some physical proof. Then i had an idea. Once before i had to write on my chest Master Paul in lipstick and take a photo of it and email it to Him, so i went into my bedroom took of my top and bra, got my lipstick and wrote “Be my Master” across my chest took a photo of it and emailed it to Him. He replied “Good slut, now phone Me” so i phoned Him.
He wanted me to go on msn and use the web cam He had sent me, i explained that i had packed it away, He also asked what i was wearing and i told Him white cotton bra and panties, a brown skirt and brown top, no stocking due to the weather being warm. He told me to put stockings on and set up my web cam, and asked how long i needed, i told Him 15 minutes. He gave me 10 minutes to get it done, and said bye and hung up.
i put my stockings and suspenders on, then went into my office to set up the web cam, then i went online with it.
He wanted me to stand up in front of it, and remove my top. He asked me to show Him my hands, He could see that i still had my nails polish on asked He had told me to do in the past, He also wanted to see my feet, one at a time. He instructed me to remove my rings and my chain, which i did, it took a bit longer to get the chain off as it’s fiddly and i was nervous, Master told me not to be nervous. He asked about the sound and i told Him it was right up on the web cam so He told me to phone Him.
i phoned Him and He was instructing me to do things in front of the web cam. i had to pull my panties to one side and rub my clit, then He wanted a close up of my pubic hair, as it was growing now, so i told Him i would have to put the phone down, He replied that was ok, so i put the phone down got the web cam and gave Him a close up shot. He also wanted a close up of my cunt, i had to hold my lips open with one hand and place the web cam in a position so He could see my cunt.
He then told me to sit back down which i did.
Master then wanted me to remove my bra straps from my shoulders, first the left one then the right one, then He told me to get one of my tits out, i didn’t hear Him properly so got both out and He shouted at me because He only said one. i put the other one away and He then made me pull my nipple, hard and not let go, as punishment for not obeying His exact words. That hurt, but i did it because Master had told me to.
After i had done that my web cam froze, and then msn disconnected, when i checked, my internet connection had gone down. Which was annoying as i had just become accustomed to sitting in front of the web cam. So i could have done what ever Master wanted in front of my web cam and not been nervous about it any more.
So We/we had to just continue on the phone. Master made me caress my tits and play with my clit, and finger my twat, He kept stopping me or i would stop if i was near to orgasm, as Master said i must not orgasm, but He kept telling me to play with my twat again, He was talking to me as He always does when i’m playing, He was telling about a film that He was watching, that i had put on my skydrive for Him. He then let me orgasm, which was the first orgasm i’d had since the last time He had told me i could.
The whole time i didn’t have Him as my Master i only tried to masturbate once, without success, because He was in my head. Without Him telling me what to do i just couldn’t get aroused, Now here i was with Master again and my cunt was soaking wet with my juices. It felt so good to have Him back. i was happy now.
Master told me that, the next day (Friday), i had to take 6 photos, 1 with the camera on the floor pointing straight up my legs to my cunt, 1 of a close up of my hole and 4 others of my choice, and my punishment for messing Him around, is that He is going to put them on an amateur site for all to see.
After He told me this He had me playing with myself again, i was told to rub my clit, slowly to start with then He made me do it harder and harder i was getting really aroused, He started talking again, this time about a married woman, He had during the week, He told me He made her cum a few times, and that she sucks dick good, but that her tits were too small to slap, as He likes to do that, He told me He had just used her, but that He was serious about me. He asked how i felt about Him using her, i said i was fine with that. He then said that i had to orgasm while He counted to 10, but He doesn’t count normally to 10, sometimes He speeds up sometimes He slows down so i can’t judge when to orgasm, because it’s never the same. He reached 10 and i was nearly there, but needed a little bit more time, He was telling me to orgasm now, He said that a couple of times and i did orgasm, and as usual every time i orgasm i have to say “i love my cunt” which i did. Then He told me it was nearly 1.00 am and told me to go to bed.
It does feel good having Master back.
i went to town on Friday and bought some rechargeable batteries for my camera with a charger.
When i got home i checked my emails and there was one from Master, asking why i hadn’t done my photos, so i explained that i had only just got in. i done the photos and emailed them to Him. i keep checking my emails and haven’t had any replies from Master yet about the photos.
Saturday 24th May
i woke up at 8.50 this morning, which was late for me, put on my dressing gown, the one that has a tartan pattern in pinks and light blues. i went in to my office and checked my emails, still nothing from Master.
So i started writing the first half of this post (Update), while i was writing i was uploading another part of a porn film to my skydrive for Master, even when He wasn’t my Master i was still uploading films for Him.
Checked emails again at 10.40, have to stop uploading to check my emails, this time i had one from Master. He said that He was pleased with me and my photos, that made me happy, He also said that i’m not required to take any photo's to day. and that He wanted to know to what i expect/want from Him being my Master. Also He would like my views on collaring of a submissive.
i had to have a think about what i did want from Him as my Master, but i did reply with what i wanted and also my views on collaring.
After i sent that i went into the bathroom and got bathed, shaved my legs and armpits still haven’t touched my pubes. i got out of the bath,wet and combed my hair , then brushed my teeth. i went in to the bedroom and got dressed, today i’m wearing plain 100% cotton bra and panties, both from Tescos, a short red skirt, which is 80% wool and 20% nylon, not sure of the make as i cut the label out a while ago because it irritated me, and a 100% cotton white v neck t shirt, size 16, bought from Peacocks a long while ago.
i found out from my youngest son, Alan, that i had been invited to a party at his dads (my second husband) house, he has friends coming up from London and as i haven’t seen them for a while i would like to go, my son, daughter, son-in-law and grandchildren are going. So i emailed Master and asked if it was alright for me to go.
At 1.15 i went down to the kitchen and mad myself a pate sandwich, brought it back up to my office and ate it while i was on the PC.
I went into the bedroom and put the telly on, and started watching a film on ITV1, with Michael J Fox in it, i was watching that and popping back in to the office to check emails while the adverts were on.
Film has finished and i’m back at my PC writng this, because i want it posted before i go out, if i’m going out that is, as i’m writing this i haven’t had a reply from Master, as yet.
It’s 4.39 and i’m going to go downstairs in a minute to cook some dinner.
5.06 dinner is on, i’m cooking mince beef with peas and gravy and we’re going to have chips tonight, i was going to do cottage pie, but as i haven’t had chips for a couple of weeks thought i’d do them instead.
Still no reply from Master. if it gets too late i might have to text Him, i know He doesn’t like that but i need to know if i can go out or not.
It’s nearly 7.00, i’ve had dinner, i’ve redone my nails and am about to get ready to go out, still no reply from Master though and i don’t really want to text Him. So i might just go any way and email Him to tell Him i’m going, i just hope He doesn’t mind.
This is an update before i start writing my dailies again.
As you know in the last one, i wrote, i had walked away from Master, for ever i thought.
Well it wasn’t for ever because i just couldn’t live without Him. i tried for over a week but it was the most miserable week of my life.
Master emailed me on Sunday 18th, telling me i had to get back in line and do it by 7.00. The only problem was i didn’t see that message until Monday, so it was too late. He also left me a message on msn saying “come on talk to Me” i replied to Him saying i wanted to talk to Him but was scared and embarrassed.
i then found out, on Wednesday, that my phone line had a problem so i emailed Master asking Him if He had tried to phone me and explained about the fault but that it was fixed. He never replied.
On Thursday, i received an email from Master, asking me what is was i wanted and saying that if i want to be back by His side then i had to email Him, if not to never email Him again. i went on to msn and got hold of my sub friend lyn for some advice, i explained that i felt confused, did i really want a Master or just the idea of one, but then i told her how miserable i had been, we chatted for a while and she told me to go for it with Master, because if i didn’t i may regret it. i knew she was right so i told her i would email Him straight away, just as i sent that message to her, Master came online and sent me a message, it read “talk to Me bitch”, so i said hello to Him and he asked me why i wasn’t going to get back in line, i told Him i was just about to email Him so He told me to do that, and said bye.
So i emailed Him, i had to beg Him to come back to me, which i did. He then replied that He wanted me to prove it and i had 10 minutes to prove it. i sat and thought for a minute how to prove it, i knew He’d want some physical proof. Then i had an idea. Once before i had to write on my chest Master Paul in lipstick and take a photo of it and email it to Him, so i went into my bedroom took of my top and bra, got my lipstick and wrote “Be my Master” across my chest took a photo of it and emailed it to Him. He replied “Good slut, now phone Me” so i phoned Him.
He wanted me to go on msn and use the web cam He had sent me, i explained that i had packed it away, He also asked what i was wearing and i told Him white cotton bra and panties, a brown skirt and brown top, no stocking due to the weather being warm. He told me to put stockings on and set up my web cam, and asked how long i needed, i told Him 15 minutes. He gave me 10 minutes to get it done, and said bye and hung up.
i put my stockings and suspenders on, then went into my office to set up the web cam, then i went online with it.
He wanted me to stand up in front of it, and remove my top. He asked me to show Him my hands, He could see that i still had my nails polish on asked He had told me to do in the past, He also wanted to see my feet, one at a time. He instructed me to remove my rings and my chain, which i did, it took a bit longer to get the chain off as it’s fiddly and i was nervous, Master told me not to be nervous. He asked about the sound and i told Him it was right up on the web cam so He told me to phone Him.
i phoned Him and He was instructing me to do things in front of the web cam. i had to pull my panties to one side and rub my clit, then He wanted a close up of my pubic hair, as it was growing now, so i told Him i would have to put the phone down, He replied that was ok, so i put the phone down got the web cam and gave Him a close up shot. He also wanted a close up of my cunt, i had to hold my lips open with one hand and place the web cam in a position so He could see my cunt.
He then told me to sit back down which i did.
Master then wanted me to remove my bra straps from my shoulders, first the left one then the right one, then He told me to get one of my tits out, i didn’t hear Him properly so got both out and He shouted at me because He only said one. i put the other one away and He then made me pull my nipple, hard and not let go, as punishment for not obeying His exact words. That hurt, but i did it because Master had told me to.
After i had done that my web cam froze, and then msn disconnected, when i checked, my internet connection had gone down. Which was annoying as i had just become accustomed to sitting in front of the web cam. So i could have done what ever Master wanted in front of my web cam and not been nervous about it any more.
So We/we had to just continue on the phone. Master made me caress my tits and play with my clit, and finger my twat, He kept stopping me or i would stop if i was near to orgasm, as Master said i must not orgasm, but He kept telling me to play with my twat again, He was talking to me as He always does when i’m playing, He was telling about a film that He was watching, that i had put on my skydrive for Him. He then let me orgasm, which was the first orgasm i’d had since the last time He had told me i could.
The whole time i didn’t have Him as my Master i only tried to masturbate once, without success, because He was in my head. Without Him telling me what to do i just couldn’t get aroused, Now here i was with Master again and my cunt was soaking wet with my juices. It felt so good to have Him back. i was happy now.
Master told me that, the next day (Friday), i had to take 6 photos, 1 with the camera on the floor pointing straight up my legs to my cunt, 1 of a close up of my hole and 4 others of my choice, and my punishment for messing Him around, is that He is going to put them on an amateur site for all to see.
After He told me this He had me playing with myself again, i was told to rub my clit, slowly to start with then He made me do it harder and harder i was getting really aroused, He started talking again, this time about a married woman, He had during the week, He told me He made her cum a few times, and that she sucks dick good, but that her tits were too small to slap, as He likes to do that, He told me He had just used her, but that He was serious about me. He asked how i felt about Him using her, i said i was fine with that. He then said that i had to orgasm while He counted to 10, but He doesn’t count normally to 10, sometimes He speeds up sometimes He slows down so i can’t judge when to orgasm, because it’s never the same. He reached 10 and i was nearly there, but needed a little bit more time, He was telling me to orgasm now, He said that a couple of times and i did orgasm, and as usual every time i orgasm i have to say “i love my cunt” which i did. Then He told me it was nearly 1.00 am and told me to go to bed.
It does feel good having Master back.
i went to town on Friday and bought some rechargeable batteries for my camera with a charger.
When i got home i checked my emails and there was one from Master, asking why i hadn’t done my photos, so i explained that i had only just got in. i done the photos and emailed them to Him. i keep checking my emails and haven’t had any replies from Master yet about the photos.
Saturday 24th May
i woke up at 8.50 this morning, which was late for me, put on my dressing gown, the one that has a tartan pattern in pinks and light blues. i went in to my office and checked my emails, still nothing from Master.
So i started writing the first half of this post (Update), while i was writing i was uploading another part of a porn film to my skydrive for Master, even when He wasn’t my Master i was still uploading films for Him.
Checked emails again at 10.40, have to stop uploading to check my emails, this time i had one from Master. He said that He was pleased with me and my photos, that made me happy, He also said that i’m not required to take any photo's to day. and that He wanted to know to what i expect/want from Him being my Master. Also He would like my views on collaring of a submissive.
i had to have a think about what i did want from Him as my Master, but i did reply with what i wanted and also my views on collaring.
After i sent that i went into the bathroom and got bathed, shaved my legs and armpits still haven’t touched my pubes. i got out of the bath,wet and combed my hair , then brushed my teeth. i went in to the bedroom and got dressed, today i’m wearing plain 100% cotton bra and panties, both from Tescos, a short red skirt, which is 80% wool and 20% nylon, not sure of the make as i cut the label out a while ago because it irritated me, and a 100% cotton white v neck t shirt, size 16, bought from Peacocks a long while ago.
i found out from my youngest son, Alan, that i had been invited to a party at his dads (my second husband) house, he has friends coming up from London and as i haven’t seen them for a while i would like to go, my son, daughter, son-in-law and grandchildren are going. So i emailed Master and asked if it was alright for me to go.
At 1.15 i went down to the kitchen and mad myself a pate sandwich, brought it back up to my office and ate it while i was on the PC.
I went into the bedroom and put the telly on, and started watching a film on ITV1, with Michael J Fox in it, i was watching that and popping back in to the office to check emails while the adverts were on.
Film has finished and i’m back at my PC writng this, because i want it posted before i go out, if i’m going out that is, as i’m writing this i haven’t had a reply from Master, as yet.
It’s 4.39 and i’m going to go downstairs in a minute to cook some dinner.
5.06 dinner is on, i’m cooking mince beef with peas and gravy and we’re going to have chips tonight, i was going to do cottage pie, but as i haven’t had chips for a couple of weeks thought i’d do them instead.
Still no reply from Master. if it gets too late i might have to text Him, i know He doesn’t like that but i need to know if i can go out or not.
It’s nearly 7.00, i’ve had dinner, i’ve redone my nails and am about to get ready to go out, still no reply from Master though and i don’t really want to text Him. So i might just go any way and email Him to tell Him i’m going, i just hope He doesn’t mind.
Thursday 15 May 2008
After i posted last night i had forgotten to put in what i was wearing, because i always write that in last because of the detail, so i will put in now what i was wearing yesterday.
I was wearing a white Florence and Fred bra from Tescos, size 38D, 100% cotton, it does up with 2 hooks at the back, has a ¾ cup, with a ½ inch shoulder strap each side, gives me just a bit of cleavage. The panties are the same make, also 100% cotton, size 14-16, bought at the same time as the bra. i was wearing a black pinstriped skirt, made by George and bought in Asda, it is 99% polyester and 1% viscose, it comes down to just below the knee and is a size 14. i had a white Editions top on, which is 100% cotton, size 16. It has a low V at the front and back which has a lacy pattern round it and the pattern is also around the bottom.
Now that is done i will get on with what i did after i posted last night.
At 7.37 last night i wrote Master an email, it was the hardest email i have ever had to write, and i was crying the whole time i was writing it. i will put the whole email here instead of just putting excerpts.
“Master
i’m sorry but You are going to be angry when You read this email.
i try and do everything You want me to do, even how i felt yesterday i still managed to make that video for You, but i just can’t get my head together about me being a submissive for You. i still don’t believe that i will ever be a true sub, it’s just not who i really am, i know You tell me this is what i am, but i’m not and never will be.
You said that i could walk away, so now that is what i’m going to do. i don’t care about the consequences, i’m just not cut out for this.
i’m sorry but i want a proper relationship where i can hold hands and have cuddles with a guy. It hurts me deep inside when i see vanilla couples and that is obviously what i am, vanilla, and always will be. That doesn’t mean i’m going to go back to my old ways and screw around because
i’m not You’ve changed how i feel about myself and i’m worth more than being just a fuck thing for anyone. i was Your slut, i’m not going to be anybody else’s.
i have tried being what You wanted me to be but can’t be that person.
i’m not doing this so that You’ll give me another chance because i don’t want any more chances, i no longer want to be what i’m not, and that is a sub.
Please believe me when i say i’m sorry because i am truly sorry, i didn’t want to do this but i’ve got to, for myself.
You keep saying there are plenty of sluts out there so You should be able to find another to replace me, You are a good and fair Master, You have always been lenient with me and i have appreciated that.
i will send You a cheque for the web cam, if You tell me the price.”
So now you know how i feel, i loved the idea of having a Master and loved the idea of being collared one day, and even having my nipples and hood pierced, but as you can see it wasn’t the lifestyle i thought i wanted. Saying that i think i always knew that it wasn’t for me, from the very beginning it was Master who told me it was what i needed. But i had to be strong and tell Him how i really felt.
20.12 went in to the bedroom, sat on the bed, put the telly on and watched football. At half time i got ready for bed, then watched the second half and then the news, and set my mobile phone alarm for 7.00 in the morning.
At 10.20 i settled down to go to sleep. The funny thing is i tried masturbating, and couldn’t even get aroused, i’m so used to only doing that when Master said, that i couldn’t do it, i think it’s going to take a while to get Master out of my head, because He was good at that. It didn’t take Him long at all to get in to my head but i think longer for me to get Him out.
Thursday 15th May.
i woke up at 6.09, sat up in bed and put the telly on, to watch the news hour, i turned on my mobile phone and turned the alarm off as i wouldn’t be needing it as i was awake.
6.17 got out of bed put my dressing gown on and went to the bathroom to use the toilet for a wee. Then went in to my office to check my emails, i had one from Master. Which read,
“Thank you for that girl.
The web cam was £
My home addy is;
I am very sorry that you have done this.
Master Paul.“
6.30 i decided that i would finish putting my video on skydrive for Master as i made it when i was still his submissive so it’s only fair i finish the job i started.
i wrote all of the above this morning, and as i wrote it tears were streaming down my face, I feel so empty inside, why do i feel like this? i got what i wanted, my freedom. i am no longer Masters sub and can go about my vanilla life.
i sat and read this over and over again, until 7.25 when i went downstairs and made the usual 2 teas and took my sons up, then went into the bathroom got washed, washed my hair, combed my hair and brushed my teeth. Then in to the bedroom to get dressed, as it’s going to be colder today i decided to wear trousers. So i put on a white Closest bra size 38D, 100% cotton that does up with 2 hooks at the back and has ¼ inch straps, black Florence and Fred pinstriped trousers, size 14, 93% polyester and 7% viscose and a black Atmosphere top size 16,made of 50% cotton and 50% modal, that has a tie round the neck that hangs down to below my waist, which is black with orange, pink and blue little stars on it. What a surprise i didn’t put panties on, and i wore my heels again. I also wore a denim jacket as it was cold out.
i went downstairs and put the telly on to watch GMTV while i waited for my son to get up, i eventually left the house at 8.34 and arrived at college at 8.50.
i went to the staff room, put my bag down under Brians desk, but kept my denim jacket on as it was cold. I picked up my mug from Brians desk and went into the kitchen and made myself a cup of tea. Then i went back to staff room and sat down in a chair next to Brian, i couldn’t check for emails at college as the internet was down, so all we could get was internal emails, so i checked those. After i checked those one of the other technicians came in to see Brian, as he wanted a male to female video cable, Brian gave me the keys to our workshop and asked me to get one, which i did, then went back to sit down again.
For the rest of the morning me and Brian were designing and printing out tick sheets for the assessment, which is next Wednesday. i did take my jacket of at some point during this.
12.00 stopped for lunch, i had to go to the canteen for my lunch as i hadn’t taken in my sandwich today, my mind wasn’t focused this morning, so i had forgotten to make one. i had chicken with a very small portion of chips and gravy, followed by syrup sponge pudding and custard, i ate that then at 12.20 i went back down to the kitchen where Brian was eating his lunch. when he’d finished his lunch we went out to the car park and got into his car where we sit every lunch time so that we’re out of the way and can relax. Brian plays a game on his PDA while i do my Sudoku puzzles.
We went back in at 1.20, i printed out a list of the students taking the assessment, because we can only do 10 at a time and there are 30 students taking it, so we were going to decide which 10 were going to take it next week, but then Brian got asked to teach and he wanted me to get some software for a network printer off of the college network ready for the morning, while i was doing that one of the tutors said that the internet was back on so i checked my emails, then sent one to Master, saying that i would send a check as soon as i could, and thanked Him for everything, and told Him that i would post this blog but it would probably be my last as it is a submissive blog and as i’m no longer a sub i couldn’t see the point in posting anymore. Why is it that every time i have thought of Master today tears have welled up in my eyes. Am i doing the right thing? Once i’d done that, i went to ask Brian what he wanted me to do next and he had me typing in router commands while he was up the front of the class explaining what each command meant.
This lesson finished at 4.00 i went outside with Debbie (another tutor) for a cigarette, the security guard, Kenny, came out to join us and he was joking about as he usually does and i told him that i’d got a web cam and he joked about me having whips and bondage gear and BDSM, he’s always joking like that. when he walked away i burst into tears ,a couple of the female tutors had commented on me being down today, and Debbie asked me what was wrong, so i told her it was something personal and i couldn’t discuss it really.
we went back inside college and into the class room where i was before, it was empty now and Debbie followed me in and told me that i could talk to her about anything, so she asked me again as she could see how upset i was, what was wrong so i explained about Master and my email and that i should be fine because it was what i wanted. She didn’t understand because she said i could go back to Him and i explained that i couldn’t, not anymore. Because i had made it clear that i didn’t want to be a submissive. She had to leave because she was teaching and i stayed in there on my own, which is what i wanted, just to be left alone.
4.30 checked my emails again, had one from Master ,i will always know Him as Master, it said, Thank you girl. You will be missed. Take good care of your self. Best wishes Paul. Which made me cry again because He used His name, which made it final, no more Master.
After i read that one i just read His others which i had kept in my inbox, all over again, it wasn’t easy reading them with tears running down my face.
What have i done? Have i done the right thing?
i left college at 5.00 and my son brought me home and i came straight up to my office to write this, probably, my very last post, and i’m still crying now. i’m now going to post it. i don’t even know if Master will read it.
I was wearing a white Florence and Fred bra from Tescos, size 38D, 100% cotton, it does up with 2 hooks at the back, has a ¾ cup, with a ½ inch shoulder strap each side, gives me just a bit of cleavage. The panties are the same make, also 100% cotton, size 14-16, bought at the same time as the bra. i was wearing a black pinstriped skirt, made by George and bought in Asda, it is 99% polyester and 1% viscose, it comes down to just below the knee and is a size 14. i had a white Editions top on, which is 100% cotton, size 16. It has a low V at the front and back which has a lacy pattern round it and the pattern is also around the bottom.
Now that is done i will get on with what i did after i posted last night.
At 7.37 last night i wrote Master an email, it was the hardest email i have ever had to write, and i was crying the whole time i was writing it. i will put the whole email here instead of just putting excerpts.
“Master
i’m sorry but You are going to be angry when You read this email.
i try and do everything You want me to do, even how i felt yesterday i still managed to make that video for You, but i just can’t get my head together about me being a submissive for You. i still don’t believe that i will ever be a true sub, it’s just not who i really am, i know You tell me this is what i am, but i’m not and never will be.
You said that i could walk away, so now that is what i’m going to do. i don’t care about the consequences, i’m just not cut out for this.
i’m sorry but i want a proper relationship where i can hold hands and have cuddles with a guy. It hurts me deep inside when i see vanilla couples and that is obviously what i am, vanilla, and always will be. That doesn’t mean i’m going to go back to my old ways and screw around because
i’m not You’ve changed how i feel about myself and i’m worth more than being just a fuck thing for anyone. i was Your slut, i’m not going to be anybody else’s.
i have tried being what You wanted me to be but can’t be that person.
i’m not doing this so that You’ll give me another chance because i don’t want any more chances, i no longer want to be what i’m not, and that is a sub.
Please believe me when i say i’m sorry because i am truly sorry, i didn’t want to do this but i’ve got to, for myself.
You keep saying there are plenty of sluts out there so You should be able to find another to replace me, You are a good and fair Master, You have always been lenient with me and i have appreciated that.
i will send You a cheque for the web cam, if You tell me the price.”
So now you know how i feel, i loved the idea of having a Master and loved the idea of being collared one day, and even having my nipples and hood pierced, but as you can see it wasn’t the lifestyle i thought i wanted. Saying that i think i always knew that it wasn’t for me, from the very beginning it was Master who told me it was what i needed. But i had to be strong and tell Him how i really felt.
20.12 went in to the bedroom, sat on the bed, put the telly on and watched football. At half time i got ready for bed, then watched the second half and then the news, and set my mobile phone alarm for 7.00 in the morning.
At 10.20 i settled down to go to sleep. The funny thing is i tried masturbating, and couldn’t even get aroused, i’m so used to only doing that when Master said, that i couldn’t do it, i think it’s going to take a while to get Master out of my head, because He was good at that. It didn’t take Him long at all to get in to my head but i think longer for me to get Him out.
Thursday 15th May.
i woke up at 6.09, sat up in bed and put the telly on, to watch the news hour, i turned on my mobile phone and turned the alarm off as i wouldn’t be needing it as i was awake.
6.17 got out of bed put my dressing gown on and went to the bathroom to use the toilet for a wee. Then went in to my office to check my emails, i had one from Master. Which read,
“Thank you for that girl.
The web cam was £
My home addy is;
I am very sorry that you have done this.
Master Paul.“
6.30 i decided that i would finish putting my video on skydrive for Master as i made it when i was still his submissive so it’s only fair i finish the job i started.
i wrote all of the above this morning, and as i wrote it tears were streaming down my face, I feel so empty inside, why do i feel like this? i got what i wanted, my freedom. i am no longer Masters sub and can go about my vanilla life.
i sat and read this over and over again, until 7.25 when i went downstairs and made the usual 2 teas and took my sons up, then went into the bathroom got washed, washed my hair, combed my hair and brushed my teeth. Then in to the bedroom to get dressed, as it’s going to be colder today i decided to wear trousers. So i put on a white Closest bra size 38D, 100% cotton that does up with 2 hooks at the back and has ¼ inch straps, black Florence and Fred pinstriped trousers, size 14, 93% polyester and 7% viscose and a black Atmosphere top size 16,made of 50% cotton and 50% modal, that has a tie round the neck that hangs down to below my waist, which is black with orange, pink and blue little stars on it. What a surprise i didn’t put panties on, and i wore my heels again. I also wore a denim jacket as it was cold out.
i went downstairs and put the telly on to watch GMTV while i waited for my son to get up, i eventually left the house at 8.34 and arrived at college at 8.50.
i went to the staff room, put my bag down under Brians desk, but kept my denim jacket on as it was cold. I picked up my mug from Brians desk and went into the kitchen and made myself a cup of tea. Then i went back to staff room and sat down in a chair next to Brian, i couldn’t check for emails at college as the internet was down, so all we could get was internal emails, so i checked those. After i checked those one of the other technicians came in to see Brian, as he wanted a male to female video cable, Brian gave me the keys to our workshop and asked me to get one, which i did, then went back to sit down again.
For the rest of the morning me and Brian were designing and printing out tick sheets for the assessment, which is next Wednesday. i did take my jacket of at some point during this.
12.00 stopped for lunch, i had to go to the canteen for my lunch as i hadn’t taken in my sandwich today, my mind wasn’t focused this morning, so i had forgotten to make one. i had chicken with a very small portion of chips and gravy, followed by syrup sponge pudding and custard, i ate that then at 12.20 i went back down to the kitchen where Brian was eating his lunch. when he’d finished his lunch we went out to the car park and got into his car where we sit every lunch time so that we’re out of the way and can relax. Brian plays a game on his PDA while i do my Sudoku puzzles.
We went back in at 1.20, i printed out a list of the students taking the assessment, because we can only do 10 at a time and there are 30 students taking it, so we were going to decide which 10 were going to take it next week, but then Brian got asked to teach and he wanted me to get some software for a network printer off of the college network ready for the morning, while i was doing that one of the tutors said that the internet was back on so i checked my emails, then sent one to Master, saying that i would send a check as soon as i could, and thanked Him for everything, and told Him that i would post this blog but it would probably be my last as it is a submissive blog and as i’m no longer a sub i couldn’t see the point in posting anymore. Why is it that every time i have thought of Master today tears have welled up in my eyes. Am i doing the right thing? Once i’d done that, i went to ask Brian what he wanted me to do next and he had me typing in router commands while he was up the front of the class explaining what each command meant.
This lesson finished at 4.00 i went outside with Debbie (another tutor) for a cigarette, the security guard, Kenny, came out to join us and he was joking about as he usually does and i told him that i’d got a web cam and he joked about me having whips and bondage gear and BDSM, he’s always joking like that. when he walked away i burst into tears ,a couple of the female tutors had commented on me being down today, and Debbie asked me what was wrong, so i told her it was something personal and i couldn’t discuss it really.
we went back inside college and into the class room where i was before, it was empty now and Debbie followed me in and told me that i could talk to her about anything, so she asked me again as she could see how upset i was, what was wrong so i explained about Master and my email and that i should be fine because it was what i wanted. She didn’t understand because she said i could go back to Him and i explained that i couldn’t, not anymore. Because i had made it clear that i didn’t want to be a submissive. She had to leave because she was teaching and i stayed in there on my own, which is what i wanted, just to be left alone.
4.30 checked my emails again, had one from Master ,i will always know Him as Master, it said, Thank you girl. You will be missed. Take good care of your self. Best wishes Paul. Which made me cry again because He used His name, which made it final, no more Master.
After i read that one i just read His others which i had kept in my inbox, all over again, it wasn’t easy reading them with tears running down my face.
What have i done? Have i done the right thing?
i left college at 5.00 and my son brought me home and i came straight up to my office to write this, probably, my very last post, and i’m still crying now. i’m now going to post it. i don’t even know if Master will read it.
Wednesday 14 May 2008
7.20 last night i was still trying to send my video attached to an email to Master, but i think because of the size of it, it wouldn’t work, i even compressed it and it was still to big to go via hotmail or my ntl account.
7.49 i emailed Master to explain about not being able to send my video. Then went and sat back on my bed.
8.00 watched Holby City on the telly, at 8.30 i went to check my emails again, there was one from Master telling me to put my video on the skydrive, and asking if i would be around in the morning. i replied that i wouldn’t be around as i was going into college tomorrow and Thursday, and i had to go in, as i was helping in a class.
9.00 i started watching Waking The Dead, and at 9.05 i went downstairs to refill my hot water bottle and i went into the cupboard in the hall to get a packet of Quavers, as i didn’t have any dinner, not that i wanted any. i took the Quavers and bottle back upstairs, sat back on the bed and ate my Quavers.
9.57 got ready for bed, still in pain, thinking that i need some sleep, so i’m going to have to take more pain killers. Just wish the cramps would stop, i don’t bleed hardly at all these days but get these cramps now and i hate it.
10.30 went down to the kitchen to make a cheese sandwich, so that i could take my prescription tablets. So instead of taking 1 tablet as prescribed i took 2. By 11.02 the pain was easing and i was feeling drowsy, so i set my alarm for 7.15 and settled down for the night.
Wednesday 14th May
i woke up at 6.29, i remember waking up once during the night but didn’t even look at the clock, so i’m not sure what time that was, i just turned over and went back to sleep. my head was feeling a bit fuzzy when i woke up this morning though, i got out of bed put on my dressing gown, the pink and light blue tartan patterned one, went into my office and carried on trying to upload my video on to the skydrive. The first part went on fine but this second part is playing me up. i also checked my emails. i then went back to my bed and put the telly on.
6.53 i went to the bathroom to use the toilet. While i was in there i got washed, wet my hair and brushed my teeth and used my Aquafresh mouthwash. Then back into the bedroom to get dressed. Today i’m wearing
i went downstairs and at 7.35 i made tea for myself and my son, i took his up to his bedroom to wake him up, so i could get a lift to college. Then i went back down to the kitchen and made myself a cheese sandwich to take to college for my lunch, and i also got a packet of quavers from the hall cupboard. i went in to the living room and put 2 library books, that i have got to take back today, and my lunch into a bag, then put the telly on to watch GMTV.
At 8.01 i was hunting for my keys, as i had checked my handbag and they weren’t in there, so i had to retrace my steps because the last time i used them was on Monday, i remember that they fell out of my jeans pocket and i put them on my bedside unit, so i went upstairs to my bedroom and traced where i went with them next, i remember taking them into my office, so i went in there and they were on top of my Canon printer/scanner. So i took them downstairs and put them in my handbag.
8.16 i gave my son another shout because i wanted to leave the house at 8.30 this morning. while i was up there i checked my upload and it hadn’t gone again, so i started it again, and because i was going to wear heels today with my skirt i got a pair of flat shoes out of my wardrobe in my bedroom, just in case my heels hurt my feet after a while because i’m not used to wearing heels. i took them downstairs and added them to the bag with the books and my lunch.
i eventually left the house at 8.35 and traffic was a bit busy but i still got to college at 8.53. just had time to go to the staffroom and put my bag under Brians desk, as he is away till Thursday. So i was going to use his desk today as i have one in the workshop but not in the staffroom. Then get to class.
While i was in class i had a chance to check my emails as the group i had were getting on with work on the computers, and only three of them were doing practical work, so i had an easy group. i had an email from Master asking me where the fuck my video was, and stating that i can’t even do a simple job like that. so i replied and explained that i was having trouble uploading them and i had tried 4 times with that 2nd part.
10.05 we stopped for a break, and i went and made myself a cup of tea in the little kitchen area just outside the staffroom, and took it with me when we went back into class at 10.20.
11.02 class finished, so i took my cup into the kitchen, washed it up and went in to the staffroom and placed my cup on Brians desk, so i knew where it was and nobody else would pinch it. I logged on to Brians PC and then checked my emails again, i had another one from Master saying that i wouldn’t be punished this time, and that He was going to be on msn at about 10ish tonight and He wanted me to be on there as well, He also said that He didn’t mind my choice of porn films, but wished i’d put English ones on. i remember putting a German one on.He also told me that i had better start catching up with my photos as, i had told Him my ex should be bringing my camera back tonight. Haven’t heard from him yet though so not sure on the camera.
12.02 went to the kitchen to eat my lunch, we have a table and four chairs in there, i sat with a part time tutor, who does the signing in lesson for the deaf students. He was in my class this morning so he joined me for lunch. i finished lunch at about 12.20 and was going to go to the library to help out, but my boss, Rob from the shop, who’s a part time tutor at college was having an appraisal and wanted me to let his students in to the classroom at one, so he gave me his keys and disappeared, so i hung around in the kitchen, then Phil another tutor , who i was helping out this morning, came in and we started talking about the students we had this morning and how we thought they might do next week for their assessment.
12.56 i went to let the students in to the classroom for Rob, and sat in with them until Rob got back. Then i went back to Brians desk and went on the internet, checking out the prices from a company called Misco who send me emails with their offers, the shop get stuff off of this company . Then at 1.25 i changed into my flat shoes and went to the library, because i knew i’d be tidying the shelves and putting books away and thought it would be easier in flat shoes. i stayed there and helped out till 4.00 then went back to our staffroom and had a chat with a couple of tutors about me becoming a tutor, and i told them that i wouldn’t do it. i don’t have the patience to deal with students, i don’t mind it now and again but couldn’t do it all the time. i also got a text message from my son explaining that he wouldn’t be able to pick me up after college so could i try and get a lift with somebody else, so i phoned my son-in-law and asked him and he said yes.
i left college at 5.00 and my daughter and son-in-law picked me upat about 5.09, and took me home they didn’t stay, so i came in the house emptied my bag and came straight up the stairs to start uploading some more of my video and write this, so that it is ready to post by 7.00.
7.49 i emailed Master to explain about not being able to send my video. Then went and sat back on my bed.
8.00 watched Holby City on the telly, at 8.30 i went to check my emails again, there was one from Master telling me to put my video on the skydrive, and asking if i would be around in the morning. i replied that i wouldn’t be around as i was going into college tomorrow and Thursday, and i had to go in, as i was helping in a class.
9.00 i started watching Waking The Dead, and at 9.05 i went downstairs to refill my hot water bottle and i went into the cupboard in the hall to get a packet of Quavers, as i didn’t have any dinner, not that i wanted any. i took the Quavers and bottle back upstairs, sat back on the bed and ate my Quavers.
9.57 got ready for bed, still in pain, thinking that i need some sleep, so i’m going to have to take more pain killers. Just wish the cramps would stop, i don’t bleed hardly at all these days but get these cramps now and i hate it.
10.30 went down to the kitchen to make a cheese sandwich, so that i could take my prescription tablets. So instead of taking 1 tablet as prescribed i took 2. By 11.02 the pain was easing and i was feeling drowsy, so i set my alarm for 7.15 and settled down for the night.
Wednesday 14th May
i woke up at 6.29, i remember waking up once during the night but didn’t even look at the clock, so i’m not sure what time that was, i just turned over and went back to sleep. my head was feeling a bit fuzzy when i woke up this morning though, i got out of bed put on my dressing gown, the pink and light blue tartan patterned one, went into my office and carried on trying to upload my video on to the skydrive. The first part went on fine but this second part is playing me up. i also checked my emails. i then went back to my bed and put the telly on.
6.53 i went to the bathroom to use the toilet. While i was in there i got washed, wet my hair and brushed my teeth and used my Aquafresh mouthwash. Then back into the bedroom to get dressed. Today i’m wearing
i went downstairs and at 7.35 i made tea for myself and my son, i took his up to his bedroom to wake him up, so i could get a lift to college. Then i went back down to the kitchen and made myself a cheese sandwich to take to college for my lunch, and i also got a packet of quavers from the hall cupboard. i went in to the living room and put 2 library books, that i have got to take back today, and my lunch into a bag, then put the telly on to watch GMTV.
At 8.01 i was hunting for my keys, as i had checked my handbag and they weren’t in there, so i had to retrace my steps because the last time i used them was on Monday, i remember that they fell out of my jeans pocket and i put them on my bedside unit, so i went upstairs to my bedroom and traced where i went with them next, i remember taking them into my office, so i went in there and they were on top of my Canon printer/scanner. So i took them downstairs and put them in my handbag.
8.16 i gave my son another shout because i wanted to leave the house at 8.30 this morning. while i was up there i checked my upload and it hadn’t gone again, so i started it again, and because i was going to wear heels today with my skirt i got a pair of flat shoes out of my wardrobe in my bedroom, just in case my heels hurt my feet after a while because i’m not used to wearing heels. i took them downstairs and added them to the bag with the books and my lunch.
i eventually left the house at 8.35 and traffic was a bit busy but i still got to college at 8.53. just had time to go to the staffroom and put my bag under Brians desk, as he is away till Thursday. So i was going to use his desk today as i have one in the workshop but not in the staffroom. Then get to class.
While i was in class i had a chance to check my emails as the group i had were getting on with work on the computers, and only three of them were doing practical work, so i had an easy group. i had an email from Master asking me where the fuck my video was, and stating that i can’t even do a simple job like that. so i replied and explained that i was having trouble uploading them and i had tried 4 times with that 2nd part.
10.05 we stopped for a break, and i went and made myself a cup of tea in the little kitchen area just outside the staffroom, and took it with me when we went back into class at 10.20.
11.02 class finished, so i took my cup into the kitchen, washed it up and went in to the staffroom and placed my cup on Brians desk, so i knew where it was and nobody else would pinch it. I logged on to Brians PC and then checked my emails again, i had another one from Master saying that i wouldn’t be punished this time, and that He was going to be on msn at about 10ish tonight and He wanted me to be on there as well, He also said that He didn’t mind my choice of porn films, but wished i’d put English ones on. i remember putting a German one on.He also told me that i had better start catching up with my photos as, i had told Him my ex should be bringing my camera back tonight. Haven’t heard from him yet though so not sure on the camera.
12.02 went to the kitchen to eat my lunch, we have a table and four chairs in there, i sat with a part time tutor, who does the signing in lesson for the deaf students. He was in my class this morning so he joined me for lunch. i finished lunch at about 12.20 and was going to go to the library to help out, but my boss, Rob from the shop, who’s a part time tutor at college was having an appraisal and wanted me to let his students in to the classroom at one, so he gave me his keys and disappeared, so i hung around in the kitchen, then Phil another tutor , who i was helping out this morning, came in and we started talking about the students we had this morning and how we thought they might do next week for their assessment.
12.56 i went to let the students in to the classroom for Rob, and sat in with them until Rob got back. Then i went back to Brians desk and went on the internet, checking out the prices from a company called Misco who send me emails with their offers, the shop get stuff off of this company . Then at 1.25 i changed into my flat shoes and went to the library, because i knew i’d be tidying the shelves and putting books away and thought it would be easier in flat shoes. i stayed there and helped out till 4.00 then went back to our staffroom and had a chat with a couple of tutors about me becoming a tutor, and i told them that i wouldn’t do it. i don’t have the patience to deal with students, i don’t mind it now and again but couldn’t do it all the time. i also got a text message from my son explaining that he wouldn’t be able to pick me up after college so could i try and get a lift with somebody else, so i phoned my son-in-law and asked him and he said yes.
i left college at 5.00 and my daughter and son-in-law picked me upat about 5.09, and took me home they didn’t stay, so i came in the house emptied my bag and came straight up the stairs to start uploading some more of my video and write this, so that it is ready to post by 7.00.
Tuesday 13 May 2008
After last nights post i went down to have dinner that my son had put on while i was writing the post, this was about 8.10. i ate my dinner then watched some telly. At 8.55 my son, David phoned me because while he was installing XP he forgot to set the keyboard settings to UK, so he wanted to know how to do it afterwards. Couldn’t remember off hand because i always do it when installing, so i went up to my office and checked on my PC and found where to do it from and explained it to him while he done it. When i hung up from him i checked my emails as i was on the PC.
9.25 went into my bedroom, undressed and wrote Master Paul on my chest in lipstick, then using my sons mobile phone, which i borrowed 10 minutes earlier, i took a photo, because that is what Master wanted. i got dressed again and then went back to my PC and sent the photo to Master via hotmail.
9.43 i went downstairs and watched my son play Grand Theft Auto 4 on his PS3, which he keeps asking me to do but never got round to it, so tonight i thought i’d watch him for a little while.
10.41 i told him i was going to bed and went upstairs, before i got undressed, i checked my emails again, this time i had one from Master, asking if the web cam he had ordered for me had turned up yet and He also said that i had done a good job with the photo, that pleased me.
i then went in to the bedroom and got myself ready for bed. I got into bed and put the telly on.
The film Fast and Furious was on so i watched some of that then set the timer to turn my telly in 1 hour and settled down to sleep. i set the timer because some nights i find it easier to fall asleep if there’s something in the background, i used to use my stereo for the same reason but it has stopped playing CDs, so i can’t use that anymore hence i now use the telly.
Tuesday 13th May
Woke up at 7.33, sat up in bed and put the telly on to watch GMTV.
7.47 there was a knock at the front door so i quickly put on my dressing gown, same one as yesterday, went down the stairs and opened the door. It was the postman, with a package for me. i took it off him then went back upstairs and straight into my office to open the package. It was the web cam. So i emailed Master to tell him it had arrived, and checked my emails.
i went back into my bedroom and sat back on my bed to carry on watching telly.
8.13, got back off the bed and went down to the kitchen to make myself and my son a cup of tea, i went to the toilet, i have one downstairs as well as up, for a wee. While i was downstairs i turned off the outside light, i have a sensored light on the drive next to my front door, opened the curtain in the living room and straightened the cushions on the settee, i normally do that at night before i go to bed but my son was still up when i went up. i took the teas upstairs and put his in his room, he was already up and in the bathroom, and put mine on the little chest of drawers that i have next to the bed. I sat back on the bed, as it is that time of the month again i was getting stomach cramps and find it more comfortable to sit with my knees up to my chest.
At 8.50 i drank my tea and took 2 paracetamol, hoping they work, otherwise i’ll have to take my prescription pain killers, codeine phosphate, but i’d have to eat before i take those, because if i don’t, they make me dizzy and feel sick, and i don’t eat in the mornings.
My son went out and said he wouldn’t be long.
i decided to go down to the kitchen and get my hot water bottle out of the drawer, fill the kettle with water from the kitchen sink and put it on to boil. When boiled i half filled the hot water bottle , got the air out of it and wrapped it in a clean tea towel. Then took it back upstairs and sat once again on my bed with the bottle against my tummy.
My son came back home got changed into old clothes then went out again.
i watched The Jeremy Kyle Show then at about 10.25 my cramps had eased slightly so i went into the bathroom, run the water into the bath, removed my dressing gown and got in to have a quick bath, using my pink and white marble patterned sponge and my Dove Fresh Touch body wash, i got out of the bath washed my hair using Head and Shoulders 2 in 1, then got dry, combed my hair, brushed my teeth. i tried to hurry up because i just wanted my hot water bottle back on my tummy. I then went back into my bedroom and decided that i would get dressed. I put on a white Closer, lacy patterned bra, size 38D, which does up with 3 hooks at the back, 65% Polyester and 35% cotton,which i bought from Peacocks a couple of weeks ago, a pair of white Evie, panties, that are plain at the back and have a lacy pattern on the front, size 14-16, 90% Polyamide and 10% Elastane,also bought from Peacock a few months ago. A black George, knee length skirt with white dotted lines down it in stripes, size 14, 99% Polyester and 1% Viscose.i bought this from Asda about 6 weeks ago, and a white 100% Viscose Essentials top, which has 4 buttons down the front, short sleeves, a little collar, the sleeves and the collar have a little bit of lace around them, with a couple of thin lace panels above the tits to the shoulder, size 16 and bought from QS about 3 weeks ago.
i then decided to go downstairs and sit in my reclining chair, with my hot water bottle replenished, and on my tummy.
i went and made myself a cup of tea at 12.30, then went up to my PC to check my emails again.
This time i had 2 from Master. The first one was telling me to set up the web cam and sign into msn, but by the time i had read it Master was gone, the second one was a couple of jobs the Master wanted me to do today. Job number 1 was to make a 10 minute video of myself from being fully dressed to nude, nothing sexual, no touching my cunt or tits and job number 2 was to let Master know if i had heard anything about my camera which i still haven’t got back, and these jobs were to be completed by 8.00 tonight. So i set up the web cam.
2.08 went into bathroom to use the toilet for a wee.
2.15 changed my white top for a red blouse, to make video for Master. Not sure if He’ll like it or not, i’ve never done this sort of thing before and was very nervous. When i’d done it i watched it back and i didn’t like it, mainly because of my body even though i’ve lost 2 ½ stone since November i have flabby bits left and i hate them. Glad it done though because i needed my hot water bottle again. Before i went back downstairs and got that, i started uploading a porn film for Master, one of my jobs for every other day.
2.44 went downstairs to the kitchen and made myself a cup of tea refilled my hot water bottle and made myself a pate sandwich, i took them all upstairs because i found it more comfortable to sit on my bed than in my chair downstairs. So i sat on my bed with the bottle against my tummy, put the telly on and ate my sandwich.
i stayed up there till about 4.30 then managed to go downstairs and do a bit of tidying up in the living room, then sat down in my chair until i came back upstairs at 6.00 to write this and send the video to Master.
9.25 went into my bedroom, undressed and wrote Master Paul on my chest in lipstick, then using my sons mobile phone, which i borrowed 10 minutes earlier, i took a photo, because that is what Master wanted. i got dressed again and then went back to my PC and sent the photo to Master via hotmail.
9.43 i went downstairs and watched my son play Grand Theft Auto 4 on his PS3, which he keeps asking me to do but never got round to it, so tonight i thought i’d watch him for a little while.
10.41 i told him i was going to bed and went upstairs, before i got undressed, i checked my emails again, this time i had one from Master, asking if the web cam he had ordered for me had turned up yet and He also said that i had done a good job with the photo, that pleased me.
i then went in to the bedroom and got myself ready for bed. I got into bed and put the telly on.
The film Fast and Furious was on so i watched some of that then set the timer to turn my telly in 1 hour and settled down to sleep. i set the timer because some nights i find it easier to fall asleep if there’s something in the background, i used to use my stereo for the same reason but it has stopped playing CDs, so i can’t use that anymore hence i now use the telly.
Tuesday 13th May
Woke up at 7.33, sat up in bed and put the telly on to watch GMTV.
7.47 there was a knock at the front door so i quickly put on my dressing gown, same one as yesterday, went down the stairs and opened the door. It was the postman, with a package for me. i took it off him then went back upstairs and straight into my office to open the package. It was the web cam. So i emailed Master to tell him it had arrived, and checked my emails.
i went back into my bedroom and sat back on my bed to carry on watching telly.
8.13, got back off the bed and went down to the kitchen to make myself and my son a cup of tea, i went to the toilet, i have one downstairs as well as up, for a wee. While i was downstairs i turned off the outside light, i have a sensored light on the drive next to my front door, opened the curtain in the living room and straightened the cushions on the settee, i normally do that at night before i go to bed but my son was still up when i went up. i took the teas upstairs and put his in his room, he was already up and in the bathroom, and put mine on the little chest of drawers that i have next to the bed. I sat back on the bed, as it is that time of the month again i was getting stomach cramps and find it more comfortable to sit with my knees up to my chest.
At 8.50 i drank my tea and took 2 paracetamol, hoping they work, otherwise i’ll have to take my prescription pain killers, codeine phosphate, but i’d have to eat before i take those, because if i don’t, they make me dizzy and feel sick, and i don’t eat in the mornings.
My son went out and said he wouldn’t be long.
i decided to go down to the kitchen and get my hot water bottle out of the drawer, fill the kettle with water from the kitchen sink and put it on to boil. When boiled i half filled the hot water bottle , got the air out of it and wrapped it in a clean tea towel. Then took it back upstairs and sat once again on my bed with the bottle against my tummy.
My son came back home got changed into old clothes then went out again.
i watched The Jeremy Kyle Show then at about 10.25 my cramps had eased slightly so i went into the bathroom, run the water into the bath, removed my dressing gown and got in to have a quick bath, using my pink and white marble patterned sponge and my Dove Fresh Touch body wash, i got out of the bath washed my hair using Head and Shoulders 2 in 1, then got dry, combed my hair, brushed my teeth. i tried to hurry up because i just wanted my hot water bottle back on my tummy. I then went back into my bedroom and decided that i would get dressed. I put on a white Closer, lacy patterned bra, size 38D, which does up with 3 hooks at the back, 65% Polyester and 35% cotton,which i bought from Peacocks a couple of weeks ago, a pair of white Evie, panties, that are plain at the back and have a lacy pattern on the front, size 14-16, 90% Polyamide and 10% Elastane,also bought from Peacock a few months ago. A black George, knee length skirt with white dotted lines down it in stripes, size 14, 99% Polyester and 1% Viscose.i bought this from Asda about 6 weeks ago, and a white 100% Viscose Essentials top, which has 4 buttons down the front, short sleeves, a little collar, the sleeves and the collar have a little bit of lace around them, with a couple of thin lace panels above the tits to the shoulder, size 16 and bought from QS about 3 weeks ago.
i then decided to go downstairs and sit in my reclining chair, with my hot water bottle replenished, and on my tummy.
i went and made myself a cup of tea at 12.30, then went up to my PC to check my emails again.
This time i had 2 from Master. The first one was telling me to set up the web cam and sign into msn, but by the time i had read it Master was gone, the second one was a couple of jobs the Master wanted me to do today. Job number 1 was to make a 10 minute video of myself from being fully dressed to nude, nothing sexual, no touching my cunt or tits and job number 2 was to let Master know if i had heard anything about my camera which i still haven’t got back, and these jobs were to be completed by 8.00 tonight. So i set up the web cam.
2.08 went into bathroom to use the toilet for a wee.
2.15 changed my white top for a red blouse, to make video for Master. Not sure if He’ll like it or not, i’ve never done this sort of thing before and was very nervous. When i’d done it i watched it back and i didn’t like it, mainly because of my body even though i’ve lost 2 ½ stone since November i have flabby bits left and i hate them. Glad it done though because i needed my hot water bottle again. Before i went back downstairs and got that, i started uploading a porn film for Master, one of my jobs for every other day.
2.44 went downstairs to the kitchen and made myself a cup of tea refilled my hot water bottle and made myself a pate sandwich, i took them all upstairs because i found it more comfortable to sit on my bed than in my chair downstairs. So i sat on my bed with the bottle against my tummy, put the telly on and ate my sandwich.
i stayed up there till about 4.30 then managed to go downstairs and do a bit of tidying up in the living room, then sat down in my chair until i came back upstairs at 6.00 to write this and send the video to Master.
Monday 12 May 2008
Monday 12th May
Woke up to my alarm, which is my mobile phone, Nokia 6230i. Got out of bed and put on my dressing gown, which is a long one down to my ankles that i bought in Hawick market about four years ago. It’s a size 18-20 but it wraps round with a one inch wide belt. It’s a Lady Selena make and has a tartan pattern in pinks and light blues, it is 35% cotton and 65% polyester, it also has two pockets in it, one each side.
i came into my office, which is the room next to my bedroom, and checked my emails on my PC which i built myself, it is a silver case with a clear side so that you can see the inside with a fan in the centre that lights up blue, green and red, and has an ASUS M2A-VM HDMI motherboard, and an AMD Athlon 64 x2 Dual-Core processor 4000+, at 2.10 GHz, and 2gig of DDR2 RAM.
After checking my emails i went into the bathroom, sat on the toilet and had a wee, then got washed using a pink and white marbled pattern sponge and Dove Fresh Touch body wash. Wet my hair and combed it then brushed my teeth using Pearl Drops Spearmint tooth polish and a purple and white Aquafresh toothbrush.
i then went back into my bedroom and put on my Dove Fresh Touch anti-perspirant deodorant, then got dressed. As i was in the shop today i am wearing a plain white bra, made by Florence and Fred from Tescos, that i bought about 2 months ago, it is 100% cotton and is size 38D with a ¾ cup, it does up with 2 hooks and has about ½ inch shoulder straps, 1 each side. and only gives me a little bit of cleavage, black Belcie jeans, with silver stitching and gems on the 4 pockets, 2 back and 2 front. I bought them from Bovingdon market last summer, they are size 16 and a bit big for me but i wear them anyway for the shop, i have the bottoms turned up outwards as they are too long for me as i’m only 5ft 2 ½ inches in height, white Jerzees polo shirt which is a large that the shop supplied and they only buy 1 size. It has the shop name over the left tit in black and is 35% cotton and 65% polyester. i also wore black Nike trainers that i bought from Sport Soccer in town about 6 years ago but only started wearing them last year.
i went downstairs to the kitchen and made tea using Tetley tea bags, i have 2 sugars and only a tiny drop of milk because i have never liked milk since i was born. Made 1 for my son, he also has 2 sugars but more milk than me. i took his tea up to him to wake him up as he gives me a lift to the shop.
i don’t have breakfast so i just made a sandwich to take with me i used 2 slices of Warburtons white bread and spread it with I Can’t Believe It’s Not Butter, then put some pork pate on it and cut it into 2. Put it in a sandwich bag , and placed it in my bag with a packet of Quavers.
i left the house at 8.30 and got into my sons blue 1.0 Ford Fiesta and we drove to the other side of Luton to where the shop is situated. we arrived there at 8.55, before unlocking the shop i went into the newsagents which is 2 doors away from my shop, to buy a small bottle of coke to have during the day. i then went to my shop and unlocked the door, switched off the alarm and entered. i went straight over to the PC that we use most to see if i had been left any notepad messages, this is how we leave notes about pending jobs for each other. There was nothing on there for me so i just looked around to see what was on the work benches. i then turned the lghts on in the front and back of the shop so people can see that we are open. i then logged onto the shop system to get our web page up as this is where we book in all our jobs. As i didn’t have any messages i text Craig to see if there was anything he had forgotten to tell me about, which he does sometimes. The only thing he had forgot to tell me was about a Dell laptop and what needed doing to it to finish it off. That was find a couple of drivers on the internet, put anti virus software on it and do any updates that was needed.
At 9.29 i logged on to msn, as this is how i get hold of my boss or he gets hold of me depending where he is.
9.45 my eldest son, David and his wife Tina, turned up to pick up an XP disc that i had in my bag for him to borrow because he was going to install it onto his computer, as he is having problems with the Vista he has on his system at present. They stayed for a cup of tea, both have 2 sugars and a normal amount of milk, and David chatted while i was getting the drivers i needed for the laptop. They left at 10.32.
i got what i needed and installed them on the laptop then went onto our server for the anti virus software which is a free one called AVG, if customers are paying for anti virus software we use Kaspersky, installed that then went online with the laptop to get all the updates, which usually takes a while because of the amount of them.
i took in a job at about 11.45, it was a PC which needed to go on our anti virus machine to be checked out and if necessary cleaned. Couldn’t put it on our machine though because there was one there having all the data removed and as i hadn’t put it on was not going to remove it until i got hold of Craig again to see how far he’d got with it.
At 12.17 i stopped to eat my sandwich and opened my bottle of coke to have a sip. Then back to work, checking the laptop for all it’s restarts.
my boss, Rob came into the shop at 12.35 with 9 brand new computers cases, not our usual stock, he could only get 9 as that was all he could fit in his car. He then asked me to build 3 new machines for one of out customers, with ASUS M2A-VM motherboards and AMD 4800+ CPUs with 1 gig DDR2 RAM, 80 gig SATA hard drives and DVD RWs. we had everything in stock so i started on them. I only managed to get 1 done, because i’m on my own in the shop on a Monday and have to see to customers answer the phone and do any work that comes in.
At 2.24 i opened my packet of Quavers and ate them.
i then went to the toilet for a wee, and luckily i was carrying a spare pair of panties in my bag and a sanitary towel, because i had started my period. So i took off my jeans and put on my panties placed the sanitary towel on them and put my jeans back on, my panties are an old pair that i just use for this time of month and the are plain white cotton ones.
i had a customer in roughly every 55 minutes today and was answering the phone every 10 – 15 minutes, these were calls for Rob, where i take messages and get them to him, or calls for advice on PCs or just customers checking on their PCs, and even calls from companies trying to sell us stuff.
At 5.15 i wrote a notepad message, to let Craig and Toby know what i have left them for tomorrow, my son turned up at 5.23, i signed off of msn at 5.26 and we left the shop at 5.30, after i had turned the lights off and set the alarm, then locked it up again.
Got into my sons car and we drove home, traffic is a nightmare at that time of day and i also had to stop of at Tescos on the way to buy more sanitary towels, so didn’t get home until 6.45,
So this post is late, because Master has changed his mind about the time He wants it posted, He changed it from 10.00 to 7.00, and as i have had to add a lot more to it, it has taken me a lot longer to write.
Woke up to my alarm, which is my mobile phone, Nokia 6230i. Got out of bed and put on my dressing gown, which is a long one down to my ankles that i bought in Hawick market about four years ago. It’s a size 18-20 but it wraps round with a one inch wide belt. It’s a Lady Selena make and has a tartan pattern in pinks and light blues, it is 35% cotton and 65% polyester, it also has two pockets in it, one each side.
i came into my office, which is the room next to my bedroom, and checked my emails on my PC which i built myself, it is a silver case with a clear side so that you can see the inside with a fan in the centre that lights up blue, green and red, and has an ASUS M2A-VM HDMI motherboard, and an AMD Athlon 64 x2 Dual-Core processor 4000+, at 2.10 GHz, and 2gig of DDR2 RAM.
After checking my emails i went into the bathroom, sat on the toilet and had a wee, then got washed using a pink and white marbled pattern sponge and Dove Fresh Touch body wash. Wet my hair and combed it then brushed my teeth using Pearl Drops Spearmint tooth polish and a purple and white Aquafresh toothbrush.
i then went back into my bedroom and put on my Dove Fresh Touch anti-perspirant deodorant, then got dressed. As i was in the shop today i am wearing a plain white bra, made by Florence and Fred from Tescos, that i bought about 2 months ago, it is 100% cotton and is size 38D with a ¾ cup, it does up with 2 hooks and has about ½ inch shoulder straps, 1 each side. and only gives me a little bit of cleavage, black Belcie jeans, with silver stitching and gems on the 4 pockets, 2 back and 2 front. I bought them from Bovingdon market last summer, they are size 16 and a bit big for me but i wear them anyway for the shop, i have the bottoms turned up outwards as they are too long for me as i’m only 5ft 2 ½ inches in height, white Jerzees polo shirt which is a large that the shop supplied and they only buy 1 size. It has the shop name over the left tit in black and is 35% cotton and 65% polyester. i also wore black Nike trainers that i bought from Sport Soccer in town about 6 years ago but only started wearing them last year.
i went downstairs to the kitchen and made tea using Tetley tea bags, i have 2 sugars and only a tiny drop of milk because i have never liked milk since i was born. Made 1 for my son, he also has 2 sugars but more milk than me. i took his tea up to him to wake him up as he gives me a lift to the shop.
i don’t have breakfast so i just made a sandwich to take with me i used 2 slices of Warburtons white bread and spread it with I Can’t Believe It’s Not Butter, then put some pork pate on it and cut it into 2. Put it in a sandwich bag , and placed it in my bag with a packet of Quavers.
i left the house at 8.30 and got into my sons blue 1.0 Ford Fiesta and we drove to the other side of Luton to where the shop is situated. we arrived there at 8.55, before unlocking the shop i went into the newsagents which is 2 doors away from my shop, to buy a small bottle of coke to have during the day. i then went to my shop and unlocked the door, switched off the alarm and entered. i went straight over to the PC that we use most to see if i had been left any notepad messages, this is how we leave notes about pending jobs for each other. There was nothing on there for me so i just looked around to see what was on the work benches. i then turned the lghts on in the front and back of the shop so people can see that we are open. i then logged onto the shop system to get our web page up as this is where we book in all our jobs. As i didn’t have any messages i text Craig to see if there was anything he had forgotten to tell me about, which he does sometimes. The only thing he had forgot to tell me was about a Dell laptop and what needed doing to it to finish it off. That was find a couple of drivers on the internet, put anti virus software on it and do any updates that was needed.
At 9.29 i logged on to msn, as this is how i get hold of my boss or he gets hold of me depending where he is.
9.45 my eldest son, David and his wife Tina, turned up to pick up an XP disc that i had in my bag for him to borrow because he was going to install it onto his computer, as he is having problems with the Vista he has on his system at present. They stayed for a cup of tea, both have 2 sugars and a normal amount of milk, and David chatted while i was getting the drivers i needed for the laptop. They left at 10.32.
i got what i needed and installed them on the laptop then went onto our server for the anti virus software which is a free one called AVG, if customers are paying for anti virus software we use Kaspersky, installed that then went online with the laptop to get all the updates, which usually takes a while because of the amount of them.
i took in a job at about 11.45, it was a PC which needed to go on our anti virus machine to be checked out and if necessary cleaned. Couldn’t put it on our machine though because there was one there having all the data removed and as i hadn’t put it on was not going to remove it until i got hold of Craig again to see how far he’d got with it.
At 12.17 i stopped to eat my sandwich and opened my bottle of coke to have a sip. Then back to work, checking the laptop for all it’s restarts.
my boss, Rob came into the shop at 12.35 with 9 brand new computers cases, not our usual stock, he could only get 9 as that was all he could fit in his car. He then asked me to build 3 new machines for one of out customers, with ASUS M2A-VM motherboards and AMD 4800+ CPUs with 1 gig DDR2 RAM, 80 gig SATA hard drives and DVD RWs. we had everything in stock so i started on them. I only managed to get 1 done, because i’m on my own in the shop on a Monday and have to see to customers answer the phone and do any work that comes in.
At 2.24 i opened my packet of Quavers and ate them.
i then went to the toilet for a wee, and luckily i was carrying a spare pair of panties in my bag and a sanitary towel, because i had started my period. So i took off my jeans and put on my panties placed the sanitary towel on them and put my jeans back on, my panties are an old pair that i just use for this time of month and the are plain white cotton ones.
i had a customer in roughly every 55 minutes today and was answering the phone every 10 – 15 minutes, these were calls for Rob, where i take messages and get them to him, or calls for advice on PCs or just customers checking on their PCs, and even calls from companies trying to sell us stuff.
At 5.15 i wrote a notepad message, to let Craig and Toby know what i have left them for tomorrow, my son turned up at 5.23, i signed off of msn at 5.26 and we left the shop at 5.30, after i had turned the lights off and set the alarm, then locked it up again.
Got into my sons car and we drove home, traffic is a nightmare at that time of day and i also had to stop of at Tescos on the way to buy more sanitary towels, so didn’t get home until 6.45,
So this post is late, because Master has changed his mind about the time He wants it posted, He changed it from 10.00 to 7.00, and as i have had to add a lot more to it, it has taken me a lot longer to write.
Sunday 11 May 2008
Sunday 11th May
Woke up at 8.03 this morning, got out of bed, put on my dressing gown and went into my office to check my emails. Once i had done that i started uploading another film for Master on my skydrive.
After i did that, i went into the bathroom and got washed, washed my hair and then i went into my bedroom and got dressed. Today i’m wearing a lacy bra and thong, a shortish black skirt, and a green top, no stocking again because of the weather.
Managed to get my front garden tidied today, i mowed it, strimmed it and weeded the drive. In between each job i popped inside to get a drink and check my emails. Nothing from Master as yet.
i sat down this afternoon and listened to some music. As well as checking my downloading and checking emails. This time i had one from Master, telling me to be online at 9.00 pm, and wait for Him to come online, but He wasn’t sure what time He’d be on. He said that i wouldn’t get bored because i have photos to catch up on, but i haven’t got my camera back yet, and a femme to find which i’ve already done.
i had dinner at about 7.00 this evening, because i was waiting for my son to come home, after dinner i came on my computer to sort out my downloads and get a couple of films ready to upload for Master.
i did as i was told and went on msn at 9.00 and at about 9.15 started talking to a submissive female that i have made friends with, she was on there waiting for her Master, the same as me, we chatted about subs in general and what sort of Masters we have, then we had to part company to talk to our Masters, but will talk again, it was good to talk to someone who’s got the same lifestyle as me, because except for my children i had no one else to talk to about it. Even though i want to tell everybody.
Master came online at 10.22 and first we chatted online then He told me to phone Him, which i did and He got me to slap my cunt, and pull my right nipple because He wasn’t happy with me again, because i wouldn’t go into that chat room, again.
After that He got me to play hard with my tits, then tease myself by rubbing my thighs, then play really hard with my clit, then the usual deep breaths to clam down. He then got me to finger my cunt until i orgasmed.
More deep breaths and He told me that i’m missing things out of my posts so i have to put everything in them. He then made me play with my clit again, while He was describing a film i had uploaded for Him, until i orgasmed again and told me to make it a good one because i wouldn’t have another orgasm for 2 weeks. He asked if my fingers were sticky, i said yes they were so He told me to wipe them over my face which i did.
After i’d done that He asked if i was tired, i said i was, so He told me to go to bed, and that we’d talk again soon.
So i’ve now written this and once i’ve posted it i’m going to collapse into bed.
Tomorrows post should be more descriptive and hopefully i won’t miss anything out.
Woke up at 8.03 this morning, got out of bed, put on my dressing gown and went into my office to check my emails. Once i had done that i started uploading another film for Master on my skydrive.
After i did that, i went into the bathroom and got washed, washed my hair and then i went into my bedroom and got dressed. Today i’m wearing a lacy bra and thong, a shortish black skirt, and a green top, no stocking again because of the weather.
Managed to get my front garden tidied today, i mowed it, strimmed it and weeded the drive. In between each job i popped inside to get a drink and check my emails. Nothing from Master as yet.
i sat down this afternoon and listened to some music. As well as checking my downloading and checking emails. This time i had one from Master, telling me to be online at 9.00 pm, and wait for Him to come online, but He wasn’t sure what time He’d be on. He said that i wouldn’t get bored because i have photos to catch up on, but i haven’t got my camera back yet, and a femme to find which i’ve already done.
i had dinner at about 7.00 this evening, because i was waiting for my son to come home, after dinner i came on my computer to sort out my downloads and get a couple of films ready to upload for Master.
i did as i was told and went on msn at 9.00 and at about 9.15 started talking to a submissive female that i have made friends with, she was on there waiting for her Master, the same as me, we chatted about subs in general and what sort of Masters we have, then we had to part company to talk to our Masters, but will talk again, it was good to talk to someone who’s got the same lifestyle as me, because except for my children i had no one else to talk to about it. Even though i want to tell everybody.
Master came online at 10.22 and first we chatted online then He told me to phone Him, which i did and He got me to slap my cunt, and pull my right nipple because He wasn’t happy with me again, because i wouldn’t go into that chat room, again.
After that He got me to play hard with my tits, then tease myself by rubbing my thighs, then play really hard with my clit, then the usual deep breaths to clam down. He then got me to finger my cunt until i orgasmed.
More deep breaths and He told me that i’m missing things out of my posts so i have to put everything in them. He then made me play with my clit again, while He was describing a film i had uploaded for Him, until i orgasmed again and told me to make it a good one because i wouldn’t have another orgasm for 2 weeks. He asked if my fingers were sticky, i said yes they were so He told me to wipe them over my face which i did.
After i’d done that He asked if i was tired, i said i was, so He told me to go to bed, and that we’d talk again soon.
So i’ve now written this and once i’ve posted it i’m going to collapse into bed.
Tomorrows post should be more descriptive and hopefully i won’t miss anything out.
Saturday 10 May 2008
After posting last night i went downstairs to spend a bit of time with my son, then at 11.15 i went to bed.
Saturday10th May
Woke up at 6.51 this morning, got out of bed and put my dressing gown on and went into my office to check my emails, nothing exciting just junk mail. Then downstairs and made myself tea.
Put the washing machine on, emptied the dishwasher and put the things away.
After that i went upstairs and got washed and dressed, today i wore white cotton bra and thong with a pattern stitched into them, a black skirt and a white top, no stockings because of the heat.
When the washing was done i put it out on the line. Then made another cup of tea and scrambled egg on toast, i put the telly on while i was eating then turned it off again once i had finished. i went into the kitchen and washed up my breakfast things.
i phoned my eldest son to see if him and his wife would take me to a shop i wanted to go to, to get a birthday present for one of my grandchildren. They said they would.
While i waited for them to come round i put some music on and did a couple of Sudoku puzzles.They turned up at about 1.00 pm. we went to the shop, then i went with them to do a bit of grocery shopping. They then brought me back home and came in for a cup of tea. They stayed for about 50 minutes then left.
i put my music on again and had a quick tidy round. A couple of times i popped up to the office to check my emails, nothing from Master today.
Just after 6.00, my youngest son took me to my aunties as it was my uncles birthday today and i wanted to drop a card and present round to him. we stayed around there for a couple of hours and then went around to my daughters to give my grandson his present and card. While i was round there i watched telly, chatted to my daughter and had a laugh with the kids.
we didn’t leave there until 11.45,.so this post is going to be late. Before i started writing this i checked my emails once more, still nothing from Master.
It is now 00.31 am, and i’m about to post this, then i’m going to bed.
Saturday10th May
Woke up at 6.51 this morning, got out of bed and put my dressing gown on and went into my office to check my emails, nothing exciting just junk mail. Then downstairs and made myself tea.
Put the washing machine on, emptied the dishwasher and put the things away.
After that i went upstairs and got washed and dressed, today i wore white cotton bra and thong with a pattern stitched into them, a black skirt and a white top, no stockings because of the heat.
When the washing was done i put it out on the line. Then made another cup of tea and scrambled egg on toast, i put the telly on while i was eating then turned it off again once i had finished. i went into the kitchen and washed up my breakfast things.
i phoned my eldest son to see if him and his wife would take me to a shop i wanted to go to, to get a birthday present for one of my grandchildren. They said they would.
While i waited for them to come round i put some music on and did a couple of Sudoku puzzles.They turned up at about 1.00 pm. we went to the shop, then i went with them to do a bit of grocery shopping. They then brought me back home and came in for a cup of tea. They stayed for about 50 minutes then left.
i put my music on again and had a quick tidy round. A couple of times i popped up to the office to check my emails, nothing from Master today.
Just after 6.00, my youngest son took me to my aunties as it was my uncles birthday today and i wanted to drop a card and present round to him. we stayed around there for a couple of hours and then went around to my daughters to give my grandson his present and card. While i was round there i watched telly, chatted to my daughter and had a laugh with the kids.
we didn’t leave there until 11.45,.so this post is going to be late. Before i started writing this i checked my emails once more, still nothing from Master.
It is now 00.31 am, and i’m about to post this, then i’m going to bed.
Friday 9 May 2008
i went to bed at 10.32 last night and i do remember falling straight to sleep.
The phone rang, it woke me up, i looked at the clock it was 11.30, there’s only one person who’d ring that late and that’s my Master. i went to pick it up and dropped it on the floor, it stopped ringing then rang again. This time i managed to answer it, it was Master.
i told Him that i was asleep, when He rang, so He told me i had better wake up and i said that i had.
He started to mention one job i hadn’t done and that was to find a female submissive to chat to and make friends with, that job was put to me a couple of weeks ago and i had started it but never seem to carry it on. He was not happy about that, so He made me get out of bed put on black stockings and then get my heels on and go into my office and on the computer.
He then made me go onto a chat site and He wanted me to enter one of the rooms, to find a playmate. i did enter but i wouldn’t chat, i just felt uncomfortable with Him on the end of the phone while i was in the chat room. Which is silly because i would do it any other time on my own. So i refused which did make Him annoyed with me, He then made me part my legs and stick a finger up my cunt and start fingering myself, and again told me to chat in the room, but i still refused. So He told me i was useless and made me slap my cunt hard four times and told me that i had to email Him before 9.00 in the morning with a valid excuse why i wouldn’t do what He had told me to do and then told me to go to bed.
About 10 minutes later the phone rang again, it was Master again, He told me that he wasn’t happy with my actions, or lack of them. Then told me to open my legs wide and start playing with myself, He made me do it harder and harder and moan louder and louder then He told me to orgasm right then, which i did. i was taking my finger off of my clit when He told me to carry on playing with it, it was really sensitive but i did as i was told, and He wanted me to come again, but because it was sensitive it took longer than i thought and He kept on at me to let it out and orgasm, i kept saying that i couldn’t, but He kept saying that i could and do it now. He then started to tell me about a film He was watching and what was happening in it, then He said He was going to give His friend my phone number over the weekend, so he could phone me, and asked if i minded. i said that i didn’t mind, by now i was close to orgasm and He told me to orgasm now, and i did.
Then He said i could go to sleep, said goodnight and hung up. i sorted myself out and went to sleep, i didn’t notice what the time was.
i woke up at 7.28 this morning, go out of bed, put on my dressing gown and went to my PC to email Master with my reason for my actions last night. i really didn’t have, what He would call, a good reason, but tried to get Him to understand that i have lived in the vanilla world for 49 years and only started in this lifestyle a few weeks ago and that i was trying, but sometimes found it hard.
i went downstairs and made myself a cup of tea and started watching telly. Once i had drunk my tea i went up to the bathroom, had a bath and washed my hair. Then got dressed in a white lacy bra and a lacy thong, a black skirt, and a yellow top.
Once dressed i texted my daughter to see if she was coming to town with me, and she replied that once her and her husband had picked up my youngest grandchild from nursery, they would come round pick me up and we’d all go into town. So while i waited i watched telly.
They turned up 12.15, i got in the car and we went to town. Done what i had to do, then we had a wonder around, window shopping. After a while we got back in the car and drove to a cafe we use and had lunch. After that, they dropped me back at my house and they went.
i wanted to watch a film so i settled down with a cup of tea and put the film on. my son came home and saw what i was watching, not his type of film, so he went upstairs and had a bath then came back down and watched the end with me. He then went out again.
i came upstairs to my office and checked my emails, i had one from Master, telling me how lenient He is with me, but if i didn’t find a female sub to be friends with by 12.00 pm Sunday i would be punished. i then just stayed up here and went on the internet.
i’m now writing this and it’s 9.15.
The phone rang, it woke me up, i looked at the clock it was 11.30, there’s only one person who’d ring that late and that’s my Master. i went to pick it up and dropped it on the floor, it stopped ringing then rang again. This time i managed to answer it, it was Master.
i told Him that i was asleep, when He rang, so He told me i had better wake up and i said that i had.
He started to mention one job i hadn’t done and that was to find a female submissive to chat to and make friends with, that job was put to me a couple of weeks ago and i had started it but never seem to carry it on. He was not happy about that, so He made me get out of bed put on black stockings and then get my heels on and go into my office and on the computer.
He then made me go onto a chat site and He wanted me to enter one of the rooms, to find a playmate. i did enter but i wouldn’t chat, i just felt uncomfortable with Him on the end of the phone while i was in the chat room. Which is silly because i would do it any other time on my own. So i refused which did make Him annoyed with me, He then made me part my legs and stick a finger up my cunt and start fingering myself, and again told me to chat in the room, but i still refused. So He told me i was useless and made me slap my cunt hard four times and told me that i had to email Him before 9.00 in the morning with a valid excuse why i wouldn’t do what He had told me to do and then told me to go to bed.
About 10 minutes later the phone rang again, it was Master again, He told me that he wasn’t happy with my actions, or lack of them. Then told me to open my legs wide and start playing with myself, He made me do it harder and harder and moan louder and louder then He told me to orgasm right then, which i did. i was taking my finger off of my clit when He told me to carry on playing with it, it was really sensitive but i did as i was told, and He wanted me to come again, but because it was sensitive it took longer than i thought and He kept on at me to let it out and orgasm, i kept saying that i couldn’t, but He kept saying that i could and do it now. He then started to tell me about a film He was watching and what was happening in it, then He said He was going to give His friend my phone number over the weekend, so he could phone me, and asked if i minded. i said that i didn’t mind, by now i was close to orgasm and He told me to orgasm now, and i did.
Then He said i could go to sleep, said goodnight and hung up. i sorted myself out and went to sleep, i didn’t notice what the time was.
i woke up at 7.28 this morning, go out of bed, put on my dressing gown and went to my PC to email Master with my reason for my actions last night. i really didn’t have, what He would call, a good reason, but tried to get Him to understand that i have lived in the vanilla world for 49 years and only started in this lifestyle a few weeks ago and that i was trying, but sometimes found it hard.
i went downstairs and made myself a cup of tea and started watching telly. Once i had drunk my tea i went up to the bathroom, had a bath and washed my hair. Then got dressed in a white lacy bra and a lacy thong, a black skirt, and a yellow top.
Once dressed i texted my daughter to see if she was coming to town with me, and she replied that once her and her husband had picked up my youngest grandchild from nursery, they would come round pick me up and we’d all go into town. So while i waited i watched telly.
They turned up 12.15, i got in the car and we went to town. Done what i had to do, then we had a wonder around, window shopping. After a while we got back in the car and drove to a cafe we use and had lunch. After that, they dropped me back at my house and they went.
i wanted to watch a film so i settled down with a cup of tea and put the film on. my son came home and saw what i was watching, not his type of film, so he went upstairs and had a bath then came back down and watched the end with me. He then went out again.
i came upstairs to my office and checked my emails, i had one from Master, telling me how lenient He is with me, but if i didn’t find a female sub to be friends with by 12.00 pm Sunday i would be punished. i then just stayed up here and went on the internet.
i’m now writing this and it’s 9.15.
Thursday 8 May 2008
After posting last night i went and got ready for bed and laid on my bed watching telly, i must have fallen asleep as the next i knew it was 2.40 and the telly was still on. So i turned the telly off and went back to sleep.
Thursday 8th May
Woke up this morning at 7.08, i didn’t have my alarm set this morning as i am going to be in all day today. i’ve got to wait in for the gas man to service my boiler and my sons playstation 3 is being replaced today as his has broke.
i got straight up and put on my dressing gown, then went into my office to check my skydrive, yet again. It was working, again, so i decided to upload another film.
i then went downstairs and got on with some housework, couldn’t hoover though in case i didn’t hear the front door.
i couldn’t even get a bath this morning in case the gas man knocked, so had to have a quick wash and then get dressed. Today i wore a plain white cotton bra, no panties, black jeans, and a yellow top. Master doesn’t like me wearing jeans, but as i was going to start sorting out my garden once the gas man had been i thought jeans would be better than a skirt.
i kept popping upstairs to check my skydrive and it was still working, i also checked my emails and i had one from Master. He was not happy with again over the skydrive because i hadn’t told him i was trying out another account and He’d gone to the old one and there was nothing on it, He wanted to know why i hadn’t done as He’d told me and downloaded a film for Him and uploaded it to the skydrive. So i replied and explained about the other account, that it was working, and asked Him to try that one.
By 1.15 pm, there was no sign of the gas man so i phoned the council to make sure that i was on the system for the service, i was, and they said that he was probably running late. So i sat in my reclining chair in the living room and started doing puzzles and listening to music, there wasn’t much i could do, i couldn’t go out into the garden to do anything because, knowing my luck, i wouldn’t hear the door, couldn’t hoover even though everything else was done. i just had to wait.
my son had been out and he came home at 4.15, at least now i could put my washing out on the line. At 4.35 his PS3 turned up, still no sign of my gas man though, so at 4.45 i phoned them again only to be told that it was cancelled because the woman on the phone thought i’d already had it done. i explained that it hadn’t been done so she’s now rescheduled it for Monday afternoon.
5.20, my eldest son, daughter-in-law and one of my grandchildren came round for a visit. While they were here my son wanted to get the old photos out of the loft to show his wife, so he went up there, found the box they are in and brought them down and we all went through them. They left at 7.55.
So, i didn’t get anything done in my garden at all today. Not that i’m a gardener, because i’m not i just wanted to tidy it up a bit. i’ll try again another day.
i’m now upstairs in my office writing this.
Haven’t heard back from Master, so i don’t know if the skydrive worked for Him or not.
Thursday 8th May
Woke up this morning at 7.08, i didn’t have my alarm set this morning as i am going to be in all day today. i’ve got to wait in for the gas man to service my boiler and my sons playstation 3 is being replaced today as his has broke.
i got straight up and put on my dressing gown, then went into my office to check my skydrive, yet again. It was working, again, so i decided to upload another film.
i then went downstairs and got on with some housework, couldn’t hoover though in case i didn’t hear the front door.
i couldn’t even get a bath this morning in case the gas man knocked, so had to have a quick wash and then get dressed. Today i wore a plain white cotton bra, no panties, black jeans, and a yellow top. Master doesn’t like me wearing jeans, but as i was going to start sorting out my garden once the gas man had been i thought jeans would be better than a skirt.
i kept popping upstairs to check my skydrive and it was still working, i also checked my emails and i had one from Master. He was not happy with again over the skydrive because i hadn’t told him i was trying out another account and He’d gone to the old one and there was nothing on it, He wanted to know why i hadn’t done as He’d told me and downloaded a film for Him and uploaded it to the skydrive. So i replied and explained about the other account, that it was working, and asked Him to try that one.
By 1.15 pm, there was no sign of the gas man so i phoned the council to make sure that i was on the system for the service, i was, and they said that he was probably running late. So i sat in my reclining chair in the living room and started doing puzzles and listening to music, there wasn’t much i could do, i couldn’t go out into the garden to do anything because, knowing my luck, i wouldn’t hear the door, couldn’t hoover even though everything else was done. i just had to wait.
my son had been out and he came home at 4.15, at least now i could put my washing out on the line. At 4.35 his PS3 turned up, still no sign of my gas man though, so at 4.45 i phoned them again only to be told that it was cancelled because the woman on the phone thought i’d already had it done. i explained that it hadn’t been done so she’s now rescheduled it for Monday afternoon.
5.20, my eldest son, daughter-in-law and one of my grandchildren came round for a visit. While they were here my son wanted to get the old photos out of the loft to show his wife, so he went up there, found the box they are in and brought them down and we all went through them. They left at 7.55.
So, i didn’t get anything done in my garden at all today. Not that i’m a gardener, because i’m not i just wanted to tidy it up a bit. i’ll try again another day.
i’m now upstairs in my office writing this.
Haven’t heard back from Master, so i don’t know if the skydrive worked for Him or not.
Wednesday 7 May 2008
Not much to say about last night. i watched telly, in between trying to sort out my skydrive, which is driving me nuts, then went to bed at 11.03.
Wednesday 7th May
i normally go to college on Tuesdays and Thursdays but this week i was needed today so i went in today instead of tomorrow.
Alarm set for 7.00 again, but as i went to bed early last night i was awake at 5.55 this morning. Didn’t get up though, i stayed in bed watching the news hour.
Got up at 7.00, put on my dressing gown then went into my office to check on my uploads on my skydrive. They were done so i checked to see if they worked and they did, my Master is not happy with me over this because it wouldn’t work, so He couldn’t see the films i’d put on there for Him.
With that sorted i went and got washed and washed my hair, then went into the bedroom and got dressed. Today i’m wearing a plain white cotton bra, no panties, plain black trousers and a light grey and white striped shirt.
Went downstairs to make tea for myself and my son, did the usual and took his up to wake him up, so i could get my lift, he was out last night around his mates and i don’t know what time he came in but it was hard trying to get him up this morning. He eventually got up and i left the house at 8.40, 20 minutes later than i normally leave.
Got to college at 8.55, luckily what i was needed for today was in class, so it didn’t start till 9.00. i was working between 2 classrooms, helping out any of the students with computer problems, as these are the students with assessments in 2 weeks. Had a tea break half way through at 10.30, then stopped for lunch at 12.00.
After lunch at 1.15, another group of students were taking the assessment, so i got the stuff ready, for the tutor, that was needed. That only took about 10 minutes.
i then went into the staff room and my boss wanted me to get some quotes for flash drives, with our college logo printed on them, and print out some student certificates from another course for a tutor to sign. Ready to be posted.
While i was in the staff room i checked my emails and i had one from Master, He’s going to send me a webcam and had lost my home address, so He asked for me to email Him with it, which i did straight away.
After this i had a chat with another tutor about the start of the new college year in September, she wants me to do some work with students that need help, and i said that i wouldn’t mind doing that. we chatted for a while and the next thing i knew it was 3.50. i didn’t have much to do then so just chatted with a couple of other tutors and then left at 4.55 to go home.
Got home about 5.15, went straight upstairs to check my emails again and had another one from Master, this time it was about the webcam and He said that as soon as i get it to let Him know, so it’s on it’s way.
i then checked my skydrive again, and i couldn’t believe it, it wasn’t working again. Master is not going to be happy with me. i keep trying different things but even though the films upload they don’t work, yet they did this morning.
It was 9.00 pm, i needed a break from it, so i went downstairs to watch telly.
9.35, back on my PC writing this post, so it’s ready before 10.00.
Wednesday 7th May
i normally go to college on Tuesdays and Thursdays but this week i was needed today so i went in today instead of tomorrow.
Alarm set for 7.00 again, but as i went to bed early last night i was awake at 5.55 this morning. Didn’t get up though, i stayed in bed watching the news hour.
Got up at 7.00, put on my dressing gown then went into my office to check on my uploads on my skydrive. They were done so i checked to see if they worked and they did, my Master is not happy with me over this because it wouldn’t work, so He couldn’t see the films i’d put on there for Him.
With that sorted i went and got washed and washed my hair, then went into the bedroom and got dressed. Today i’m wearing a plain white cotton bra, no panties, plain black trousers and a light grey and white striped shirt.
Went downstairs to make tea for myself and my son, did the usual and took his up to wake him up, so i could get my lift, he was out last night around his mates and i don’t know what time he came in but it was hard trying to get him up this morning. He eventually got up and i left the house at 8.40, 20 minutes later than i normally leave.
Got to college at 8.55, luckily what i was needed for today was in class, so it didn’t start till 9.00. i was working between 2 classrooms, helping out any of the students with computer problems, as these are the students with assessments in 2 weeks. Had a tea break half way through at 10.30, then stopped for lunch at 12.00.
After lunch at 1.15, another group of students were taking the assessment, so i got the stuff ready, for the tutor, that was needed. That only took about 10 minutes.
i then went into the staff room and my boss wanted me to get some quotes for flash drives, with our college logo printed on them, and print out some student certificates from another course for a tutor to sign. Ready to be posted.
While i was in the staff room i checked my emails and i had one from Master, He’s going to send me a webcam and had lost my home address, so He asked for me to email Him with it, which i did straight away.
After this i had a chat with another tutor about the start of the new college year in September, she wants me to do some work with students that need help, and i said that i wouldn’t mind doing that. we chatted for a while and the next thing i knew it was 3.50. i didn’t have much to do then so just chatted with a couple of other tutors and then left at 4.55 to go home.
Got home about 5.15, went straight upstairs to check my emails again and had another one from Master, this time it was about the webcam and He said that as soon as i get it to let Him know, so it’s on it’s way.
i then checked my skydrive again, and i couldn’t believe it, it wasn’t working again. Master is not going to be happy with me. i keep trying different things but even though the films upload they don’t work, yet they did this morning.
It was 9.00 pm, i needed a break from it, so i went downstairs to watch telly.
9.35, back on my PC writing this post, so it’s ready before 10.00.
Tuesday 6 May 2008
Tuesday 6th May
am.
That’s it Bank Holiday over, back to normal.
i’m at college today, so my alarm was set for 7.00, what a surprise, i woke up before the alarm, at 6.44. Sat up in bed and put the telly on to watch the last part of the news hour. So at 7.00 i got up put on my dressing gown and went downstairs to get my clothes for the day, which were on the back of a chair in the dining room, because i got them ready last night.
Into the bathroom for a bath, in the mornings i get in the bath as it’s running and get myself sorted, that includes shaving, only my legs and armpits though, not allowed to touch my pubes.
Then back to the bedroom to get dressed.
Today i’m wearing a white cotton bra, no panties as Master has ordered, a pair of black pinstripe trousers and a white pinstripe top, it looks like a shirt but it just pulls on over the head. I’ll be wearing flat shoes when i leave the house.
Back downstairs to make tea for myself and my son, i take his up to him to wake him up, because he’s giving me a lift this morning. It’s 7.40.
Left the house at 8.20.
Another day in paradise, that’s what we keep telling ourselves when we enter college. Had a slow morning, just sorting out bits in our workshop as we are downsizing in the summer. Did that right up till lunchtime, at 12.15.
pm.
Back to the staff room after lunch, 1.10. Quite busy this afternoon, paperwork for a City and Guilds assessment, sorting out forms for the students taking it and printing out the assessment for each student, i spent a lot of the time on the college network collecting all the information needed for each student. i finished that at about 4.35. Then we just looked through everything to make sure nothing was missed. i left college at 4.55 to go home.
Got home at about 5.25, i went straight up to my office to check my emails. i had one from Master, telling me i did very well last night, as always. That made me happy, i like it when He says things like that to me. He also said that He’s changed my daily jobs for Him. i used to have to text Him every morning at 10.00 to say, have a good day at work, that’s now stopped and instead of emailing Him every day like i used to, i now have this blog to write. He also wants me to download a porn film every other day, and, He has told me not to wear panties when i wear trousers or jeans. Which i don’t have a problem with, too bad if i did really.
i’m going to watch telly, for a while this evening,
i have to post this blog before 10.00 in the evenings, Master said, so anything i do after i’ve posted it will be caught up on in the next one.
am.
That’s it Bank Holiday over, back to normal.
i’m at college today, so my alarm was set for 7.00, what a surprise, i woke up before the alarm, at 6.44. Sat up in bed and put the telly on to watch the last part of the news hour. So at 7.00 i got up put on my dressing gown and went downstairs to get my clothes for the day, which were on the back of a chair in the dining room, because i got them ready last night.
Into the bathroom for a bath, in the mornings i get in the bath as it’s running and get myself sorted, that includes shaving, only my legs and armpits though, not allowed to touch my pubes.
Then back to the bedroom to get dressed.
Today i’m wearing a white cotton bra, no panties as Master has ordered, a pair of black pinstripe trousers and a white pinstripe top, it looks like a shirt but it just pulls on over the head. I’ll be wearing flat shoes when i leave the house.
Back downstairs to make tea for myself and my son, i take his up to him to wake him up, because he’s giving me a lift this morning. It’s 7.40.
Left the house at 8.20.
Another day in paradise, that’s what we keep telling ourselves when we enter college. Had a slow morning, just sorting out bits in our workshop as we are downsizing in the summer. Did that right up till lunchtime, at 12.15.
pm.
Back to the staff room after lunch, 1.10. Quite busy this afternoon, paperwork for a City and Guilds assessment, sorting out forms for the students taking it and printing out the assessment for each student, i spent a lot of the time on the college network collecting all the information needed for each student. i finished that at about 4.35. Then we just looked through everything to make sure nothing was missed. i left college at 4.55 to go home.
Got home at about 5.25, i went straight up to my office to check my emails. i had one from Master, telling me i did very well last night, as always. That made me happy, i like it when He says things like that to me. He also said that He’s changed my daily jobs for Him. i used to have to text Him every morning at 10.00 to say, have a good day at work, that’s now stopped and instead of emailing Him every day like i used to, i now have this blog to write. He also wants me to download a porn film every other day, and, He has told me not to wear panties when i wear trousers or jeans. Which i don’t have a problem with, too bad if i did really.
i’m going to watch telly, for a while this evening,
i have to post this blog before 10.00 in the evenings, Master said, so anything i do after i’ve posted it will be caught up on in the next one.
Monday 5 May 2008
Monday 5th May
Had my phone call with Master tonight, about 10.40. He was going to phone me last night but had guests round so couldn’t. He emailed me earlier today to let me know that at some point today He was going to phone me so that He could “use me hard and humiliate me badly”.
He’s not happy with me because i left my camera down in Kent last week and won’t get it back till Sunday, so i can’t send him any photos this week. i have got to make up for it when i get it back though, i have to send Him 4 a day, so when i do get it back i’ll have to take 28 photos.
Master told me that He wasn’t happy with me, then told me to remove my panties, which i did and then i folded them up and placed them on the bed next to me. That is a rule of His, my clothes always have to be neat and tidy whether i’m wearing them or have removed them.
He asked me how my pubes were doing, because i’ve had a shaven cunt for years and He is making me grow them back, so i told Him that they are about ½ inch long now.
Master then told me to play with my bud, it has been over a week since i’d touched myself, and it felt good. i could play with myself but i couldn’t orgasm, i really wanted to, but i did as i was told and stopped before i did. He then told me to remove my bra, so i had to put the phone down to do that. That also got folded and put with my panties.
i then had to go into my office and sign on to msn, and send him parts of a film that i tried to upload to my Skydrive but for some reason wouldn’t work once uploaded. While i was in there He got me to play with my bud again, then stop when i was near orgasm. This happened a couple more times, He wants me to get used to my bud being played with a lot, and as usual He told me to moan loud, He wanted me to moan really loud so that my son could hear what a “whore i was”. my son, who’s 21, was in his bedroom, just across the landing from my office.
A couple of times Master made me pull on my nipples really hard and that hurt, but that’s what He wanted, and i had to slap my left tit, He made me do that 3 times. Then asked if it was red and when i told Him yes He said “good”.
All the time i’m playing with myself Master talks to me and one of the things He said this time was that as i was going to college tomorrow in trousers i wasn’t to wear any panties, no panties from the time i get up until the time i go to bed.
Master told me to finger my twat and finger it hard for 5 minutes, this time i was allowed to orgasm, while He counted to 10, then i had to rub my bud again and orgasm straight away, i told Him that i couldn’t, not that quick but He kept on at me and said if i didn’t He’d make me slap it hard. i did manage to orgasm and it was a big one and Master always says “that’s it, let it out”. Then deep breaths to calm down, Master always tell me to take deep breaths when i get excited.
Master let me go at approximately 12.20, told me to go to bed as it was late. He also made sure i remembered my tasks for tomorrow.
Had my phone call with Master tonight, about 10.40. He was going to phone me last night but had guests round so couldn’t. He emailed me earlier today to let me know that at some point today He was going to phone me so that He could “use me hard and humiliate me badly”.
He’s not happy with me because i left my camera down in Kent last week and won’t get it back till Sunday, so i can’t send him any photos this week. i have got to make up for it when i get it back though, i have to send Him 4 a day, so when i do get it back i’ll have to take 28 photos.
Master told me that He wasn’t happy with me, then told me to remove my panties, which i did and then i folded them up and placed them on the bed next to me. That is a rule of His, my clothes always have to be neat and tidy whether i’m wearing them or have removed them.
He asked me how my pubes were doing, because i’ve had a shaven cunt for years and He is making me grow them back, so i told Him that they are about ½ inch long now.
Master then told me to play with my bud, it has been over a week since i’d touched myself, and it felt good. i could play with myself but i couldn’t orgasm, i really wanted to, but i did as i was told and stopped before i did. He then told me to remove my bra, so i had to put the phone down to do that. That also got folded and put with my panties.
i then had to go into my office and sign on to msn, and send him parts of a film that i tried to upload to my Skydrive but for some reason wouldn’t work once uploaded. While i was in there He got me to play with my bud again, then stop when i was near orgasm. This happened a couple more times, He wants me to get used to my bud being played with a lot, and as usual He told me to moan loud, He wanted me to moan really loud so that my son could hear what a “whore i was”. my son, who’s 21, was in his bedroom, just across the landing from my office.
A couple of times Master made me pull on my nipples really hard and that hurt, but that’s what He wanted, and i had to slap my left tit, He made me do that 3 times. Then asked if it was red and when i told Him yes He said “good”.
All the time i’m playing with myself Master talks to me and one of the things He said this time was that as i was going to college tomorrow in trousers i wasn’t to wear any panties, no panties from the time i get up until the time i go to bed.
Master told me to finger my twat and finger it hard for 5 minutes, this time i was allowed to orgasm, while He counted to 10, then i had to rub my bud again and orgasm straight away, i told Him that i couldn’t, not that quick but He kept on at me and said if i didn’t He’d make me slap it hard. i did manage to orgasm and it was a big one and Master always says “that’s it, let it out”. Then deep breaths to calm down, Master always tell me to take deep breaths when i get excited.
Master let me go at approximately 12.20, told me to go to bed as it was late. He also made sure i remembered my tasks for tomorrow.
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